OMG Orientation groupings OUT

i am in OG 21 !!!

Happy and sad.
Happy : I got to be with Nicholas, Wei Leong, Jin Yang and Alfred Wan! wheee so fun!
Sad : Well.. wenshi, shiqi, libo.. and most of meh friends are all else where !

T_T

look
OG 20: Libo
OG 22: Shiqi
LOL just beside each other T_T

aaaahhhh

A good reason to stay at home

just went shopping at Robinsons with my mum, who wanted a new shoe for this festive season.

guess what... we did things.. but in the end we did not buy a single shoe...

hahahha .. robinsons have this sale, up to 50% of EVERY item storewide. zomg ...
its a rather good sale too.. hahaha beating all other sales hands down i tell you..

however,
great sales + public holiday =



and



and those are only snapshots of the real thing.. so you should be able to know what its like...
hahahaha it seems like the whole of Singapore converged in one place.. a good place to mix around and mingle in the crowd

getting lost amongst the crowd is child's play, just stand still and soon enough every face around you has a 50% chance to change.
if you need to look for someone, or tell someone your location, do not say something as brief as" At the underwear section" or "at the kitchenware section", instead say something more specific like "I am standing underneath the "UP" sign for the escalator on Level 2" or "I am at the fitting room on Level 3 right at the back"...

or better still "I am outside Robinsons on level 3"

hahaha...

however I have some top tips to make you stand from the crowd, and be easily located in case you might be lost:
1. Dye your hair to some luminous colour or wear a cap - you will immediately be outstanding
2. Wear some funky clothes with bright colours and odd stripes
3. Wear high high-heels
4. Get bad dandruff or body odour (you should know what happens)
5. Practice squeezing through crowds in MRTs during peak hours

so .. have fun
(and abuse our school holidays .. by going on working days) hahahaha student FTW

i am back ... hahaha apologise to my friends who called me for going out ... and didnt get responses.. =(

anyways... will come up with the blog laterz.. just woke up from some 2-digit hours of sleeping XD
woooots

backache~

I like rain and don't like rain.

I like rain because it gives life to us.
I like rain because it gives me an excuse to stay indoors to sleep.
I like rain because it is cooling.
I like rain because it makes drinking hot drinks much more enjoyable.
I like rain because it enables us to make use of our umbrella.
I like rain because you can get sick from it and then get MC to excuse yourself from things.

But I don't like rain because it doesn't allow my clothes to dry.
But I don't like rain because it means carrying an extra thing everywhere I go.
But I don't like rain because it means squishing around in water, and having my whole feet wet.
But I don't like rain because it means no more outdoor sports for me.
But I don't like rain because it means ice-cream cannot be enjoyed well.

But I don't like rain now because it means getting sick now, which is the wrong time.

how about you?

ok. opened the door with the key, then thousand and one things ran through my mind

1) Wow, what a heavy bag I was carrying (in fact it wasnt as heavy as someone else's bag)
2) Wow, my house didnt change alot (why would it anyway)
3) Wow, 3 days just passed like that (why did it)
4) Wow, I actually stayed up overnight! (well, we did fun stuff)
5) Oh my gosh, my laptop!
6) Are there any more tickets for Golden Compass?
7) Oh my, what's the weather forecast for today (yesterday)
8) The bed looks inviting (oops)

the 3 day holiday at the holiday flat was interesting and fun hahahaha

1) I got to know everyone (who came) better
2) I got to know everyone (who came) even better
3) I got to know the holiday flat better
4) I got to know that fish is the best dish (to cook and eat)
5) I got to know that rice depends on the rice pot itself
6) I got to know mahjong and cards really take up alot of time
7) I got to know that the weather can be crazy
8) I got to know that excess corn flour can be added to pork to form .. erm creamy edible stuff
9) I got to know that cooking 6 dishes takes 6 hours with around 6 people
10) I got to know that sleeping is essential
11) I got to know that Siheng is an ub3r pr0x g4m3r.
12) Salt, seasoning, and everything (else that is) good.

hahaha.. i think that basically sums up most of the events and happenings ... well . I shall not go into elaborate details like the "bird"-ing and other random stuff ... hmmmmm


anyways.. really thank you siheng and your family.. 1 hr ride home.. omg.... !!!! GG

Life problems wont be called hurdles if there was no way to get across them (jumping over)

brood about that...

and then think about this

Change (in reality) is inevitable - except from the vending machine

Was surfing around...
just realised how many blogs I have missed ...

SEE2 2007 ... is ______

SEE2 is over? its over? omgawd its just ... *over* ?

========================================================
o.ver [oh-ver]
- adjective
46. ended; done; past:
========================================================

I cant believe it .. it ended in 3 days .. a year (almost) of hard work, planning, discussing .. and even quarrels and disputes, just finished in a matter of 3 days..

at least the event was successful !!! oh my gosh .. that's the best present I can ever get from SEE2, this feeling of success..

anyways I also get the meet friends whom I havent met for a while, Ali, Shiqi, Qiao Wei, heidi... and surprise surprise.. the iDA Ambassadors..
even though I didnt really talk to them ... at least seeing them once a while refreshes your memory of the pleasant times
(Katherine, Wei Jian ... didnt really change in appearance, but anyways who changes so much in a year?)

Qiao wei and heidi, didnt get to meet them after SEE2 last year, and heidi is omgawd.... ______ yet powerful, in terms of voice, linguistic abilities and so forth. qiaowei .. ahaha, still that smiling look...

* OH Y GOD LITTLE BOYS.. ! *

then there's the Hwachong boys and Nanyang girls =D
I shall LIST THEM ALL!!!

hwachong boys: Libo, Siheng, Zhi Hao, Joel, Daniel, Wei Zheng, Kelvin
nanyang girls: Wenshi, Shiqi, Yuying (ex-nygh Alicia and Gen)
old boys: Li Sheng, Lionel

if i miss you out tell mee !!! I hope i didnt .. i looked thru this over and over and over again ... T_T
so sad some people weren't able to make it.. but they still contributed nonetheless, let's give a warm round of applause!

the OT rox! love all of you .. =D

This year's SEE2 is different:
1) Its entirely student-led
2) There's no iDA involvement (J3nNY)
3) There's lesser participants
4) No air-con at OPs room
5) Libo's the Organising Secretary
6) I worked in a committee, through the planning stages
7) We got a new bunch of Sec 1s to help
8) We got Sec 2s to join as participants
9) Mr Yong displayed a sudden adrenaline rush and enthusiasm (if you dont understand .. ahah ask!)
10) There's no goodie bags, but goodie files
11) Our certificates have to reprint twice
12) We bought too much stuff (food, materials)
13) We got presents for the participants
14) OT got to eat with participants
15) We presented in LT@SRC
16) Waterbombs was modified
17) Cool games worth watching
18) Participants as facilitators
19) Participants had gummy sweets as prizes for 2 days flat LOL!!!
20) I AM AN EMCEE OMG!!!!

well .. what else.. add it for meh plz !! =D

but seriously... other than some minor hiccups here and then .. I must congratulate everyone for this success!!!

I could see some people were bonded with each other.... even Group 4 !

Group 4 was initially the only group that wasnt really bonded.. but they really picked up, "and gave an inspiring presentation".
Group 2 was darn high, playing hangman and stuff zzzz Pyloric Sphincter
Group 1 even traded contacts on the first day !!!!
Group 3 gave a really good presentation with interesting ideas Good work!

then the games
wakakkakak BALLOOoOONNSSS BALLOOONSS!! loads and loads of balloons.
(although the Sec 1s went a bit too far in Day 2)

FLOUR FLOUR FLOURRRR loads and loads of gummy sweets

then came the uber game, oddities.. ahaha I still remember, so darn funny!
so near yet so far, some was this close, yet they didnt observe enough. I bet they were like WTH WTH WTH when they saw the "Behind the scenes" video today.

and lastly, waterbombs.... wooots a very innovative way of controlling the crowd, whistling. And somehow I felt we made the same number of balloons as last year?!?!
Nonetheless it was still darn fun, throwing at each other =D

HEIDI WAS LIKE ....... you know what.. hhahahahahaha star of the show!

and then there's the lu yang bondage, ok .. not so bondage, just rolling around in sand.. and you know what comes next... sand in everywhere.. oh welll... and he showcased some erm.... skin!

hehe

the games were really fun..
even though it was DARN TIRING to create them, but watching other ppl play also kind of make me high as well... you see the excitement and enjoyment.. like little kids XD

oh well I got to simmer down .. 3 days of fun, 3 days of work, 3 days of waking up at 5 am... 3 days of ... !!!!

3 CHEERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am just tired
you know the meaning of tired?
you know what it feels like when you can just sleep? (oh no ASS)

+ my ankle seems to be screwed.. its like hurting ....

gosh


===========================

btw was just deciding on a new pic .. haha saw this pic .. really reminds me of loads of things...
things like .... friendship is not always a two-way thing...

yea .. did it in a few minutes (thanks for laggy com)

i am not like most of my friends.
sleeping at 4am and waking up at 6am without going wobbly out of bed is not my forte, instead that will force me into a deeper slumber when I wake up.

oh my.
my head is really spinning.
lucky the bath brought me back to reality.. by at least 80%.
I still sorely miss the cuddly pillow, blanket and mattress (yes I sleep on a mattress)

oh shit.. its 11am wth ? my alarm clock did not ring? or issit this huge sleeping bloke was totally oblivious to the inevitable ringing of an alarm clock. wow this is cool.
so if you want show the world that alarm clocks in fact dont work, sleep very late.

this is a real tough challenge, sleep late wake up early.. this resulted in random sleeping spells at anywhere I can get my a55 on. literally...
heard of Class 95. ASS = Afternoon Sleeping Syndrome, it seems that I got one, and I need things to get off my ASS (literally and metaphorically).
Give me a chair with cushion, something that I wont slip off. Then give me 10 minutes, and you get the most common sight you only see during night time.

coffee plox..!!

====================================================
The Real Thing by Bo Bice

Every word I say, I mean it
Every single day, I feel it

But sometimes when you talk
It's obvious you want to show it
So don't blow it

Chorus:
Tell me what we got, tell me it's a lot, tell me it's the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that's a good thing
It's a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it's fate driving me insane
Tell me it's the real thing
That keeps me hanging on

I can read the signs between us
I feel it inside when you come nearer
There's a stillness in the air like no one else is there
And every moment stays in the moment
Yeah

====================================================

Love the song, it has kind of summed up most of these feelings that I have been getting here and there, all these years.
I can chat, but whenever it comes to face to face... I get butterflies in my stomach and I just back away and be a loner. I can't seem to start conversations, yet others are able to just *snap* and everyone will start chatting and laughing... why?

argh..


Oh my god. Can you imagine I am gunna be an EMCEE for the upcoming conference?
Even though there's relatively lesser people, but its still an EMCEE! OMG OMG OMG... hahah at least I can do with someone else >> JOEL !! If I cannot even strike up conversations with friends, lest maintain one.. how about this?
But I shall take on the job, I gonna make SEE2 rock! YEA!!!

Ok, 2nd year of SEE2 IT Conference. This time held by us, and screwed by us as well. AH ... last minute work is always the same .. rushing and tiring .. oh wellz I need more sleep ahahahha

jia you OT OT OT =D


holiday is already 1 month gone and I havent done anything productive. oh well .. any suggestions?
I hope this is not the same as last time... time wasting

holy cow... this camp is zzzz

so many bad things to me.. wth?
maybe I am too careless, too carefree, too excited, too distracted

1) I got an embedded splinter in my foot (a small one) that cannot be taken out no matter how hard i try
2) My spectacles dropped on the ROAD from my pockets whilst I was running, and it got crushed by a care, literally.. crushed... a nice frame into a mangled piece of metal
3) Now my feet stinks alot.. zzz

aaahhhhhhh

my parents will pwn me man..

T3H H4NDS0M3 KEV1N

lolololololololololololololololoL!!!!111!!

meh 1sh t3h h4nds0me pwnj00 bw4h4h4h4h44h4h4h4h4h!!!111


lol.




PS: This is done by my good friend Libo (if you know him)

oh yea.. finding a job is ... hard?
especially when they do not call you, and when you try to look them up personally .. they arent there.. oh well

Haha, this experience is getting into me, at least I feel myself getting "braver" by the minute.

I cannot imagine, when we enter the working world, what would it be like?

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++=

During the holidays, instead of spending 100% of my time gaming, I have decided to allocate some time reading. Just read about this novel on the "Holy Shroud", it is something like Da Vinci code, using reality to become fiction.

Now I am reading Neil Humphrey's "Notes from a smaller island" omnibus. Seriously, if you want some laughs, and some understanding of Britain (as well), read the book. It enriches yourself... and at the same time allows you to really understand your own society. I just realised everything was taken for granted, until this book. I just realised how great Singapore was.

ok
guessed what

after taking lunch .. Xue Hai just called me .. zzzz

oh well tommorrow the admin is calling me ...

haha ..

let's hope for the better =D

called Macs.
i think i am loser, 失败者, failure ..




Mac: Macdonalds Clementi Branch. How can I help you?
Kevin: Uh.

K: Uh. Uh... Uh.. May I enquire..
Mac: yes?
K: May I enquire if there are any holiday jobs for a student?
Mac: May I know how long you will be working?
K: For around 2 Months.
Mac: Sorry, we currently accept only part-timers who work at least 3-6 months. We do not hire holiday workers. If you wish to apply, you may ....

disappointment, regret, dumb, silly, idiotic..
oh well....

and my parents recounted their school working days as if you could pick up the phone and accept a job. and then leave 1 month later... zzz

ok . the tuition centre jacked me T_T
booohoooohooohooooho EMOZ! EMOZ EMOZ....

...
...
...
...

ok that was lame ... but the handphone didnt ring, my Gmail did not show new Inbox mails (other than notifications of Forums I read.. like Topic Reply Notification - EC³ EOY Camp 2007), and its for at least 4,5 days. oh well I guess I cant.
Then, to think again, who would want a 16-year-old newbie, a boy who has not even reached Junior College, to come and help you teach? Yes, I had had experience teaching, but that does not mean I can make the grade?

Ok, now my eyes are towards the fast food restaurants, or even supermarkets. No matter what, I am going to make $$$ in this holiday. Cashier would be not bad. Fast food restaurants would be better - if I do, look for me I give you drinks without ice. =/

ok .. cheers!
happy holidays

WATCH "80s REWIND" EVERY TUESDAY AT 8.30pm

seriously....

This came on my computer screen this afternoon..

Subject: Looking for Holiday Job as a Tutor
Body: I am Kevin Seng from Hwachong Institution .... -- Best Regards, Kevin Seng

Hehe ... Hope I get a call tommorrow.

looking for work .. anyone got contacts / want join me?

Going Green? Think again.

Save the Earth
Save the Animals
Save the Environment
Save the Future

You should have heard, read, seen these phrases almost everyday now. Last time they were non-existent on your televisions or dailies, and it was just a few years back?

Dr Jane Goodall came to our school today, giving an inspirational speech on her life, her work, her dedication to saving the world, particularly our closest relative - the chimpanzees.
She described her adventures with nice detail, adding some sound effects here and there , including mimicking - you guessed it - monkey calls.
Then she went on to talk about how youths around the world help others, even in the most remote areas.
It was really good, uplifting, inspirational and motivational.

However, I have recently watched a documentary called "God is Green" (you may find it as "Is God Green?"). And something in there really sparked a good debate that has been battling my mind ever since I entered the auditorium for Dr Jane's presentation.

Just how much can EACH person change? You can recycle every day, you can walk to school daily, you can cut down on wastage you can this you can that. But think about it, how much of an impact can it make? Look at those pollutant-spewing factories, look at the thick cloud hovering over the developing countries.

You can save your food, but still overfishing will occur.
You can try and recycle plastic bags, but still companies will continue making plastic bags.
You can save on electricity, but there will always be the flashy lights that illuminate the skies at night.

I mean, even if a group, a city decides to go green, I doubt it has much impact.
We need a global effort. But in this globalised world, is the national interests of every country "Going green"? I doubt.

Every country wants economic development.

Let's just take an example of carbon emissions:

India is a fast developing country, China is another too. Even though they rank 3rd and 2nd in terms of total carbon output, their carbon output per person is one of the lowest!
Furthermore, India has just started the run to industralised nations, have started their journey that their Western counterparts have long gone in front. Think about this quote: "Why do we have to reduce our development rates and lose our 'right' to develop when the Westerners can do it? Furthermore the Westerners are the one that produces the most carbon, why bother us?"
What do we do with it?

You can ask them to develop the "green method". But 良药苦口, good medicine always tastes bitter, the green methods to really cut down the carbon emissions requires more revenue, more expenditure. What the government want is fast, quick, good bucks to make. Furthermore, the land is so big, how can the government really enforce? You think the money hungry people do not want a nice house, big cars and so forth, and they can only get that if they get alot of money, and if they can reduce production costs, and therefore the environment get cast aside.

Think about it.
How powerful are the green activists compared to the power-wielding politicians. After each campaign, you spend so much on posters, banners, flyers, you guess how many resources have to be used? You can use recycled materials, but that will cost more.

Think about it.
You want tobacco companies to shut down because of their poisonous, intoxicated sticks of supposed charred leaves? Oh yes you can. But that will mean laying off thousands of people.
You want poachers to stop their erratic behaviors before some animal will only appear in books and pictures? But that will mean causing the really desperate, those living in poverty and making ends meet through this means.
Oh yes I asked her, and she replied, "They can go find other jobs? Why should they risk other people's lives "
But I shall reply. I did not have the chance, but I shall reply here. Most of these people are poorly educated, where do you want them to go? You bring them to factories, that will mean increased usage of resources. You cannot have thousands of plumbers, road sweepers, construction workers, hawkers, trishaw riders etc.

So what do you think? I am not against or criticizing the efforts to go green, in fact I support and I am in full agreement. But on the hindsight, are our efforts just a tiny drop in the whole ocean? Do not give the crap that it stacks or something. The world has been made like this, you want to save something, you will hurt another.

How? What can we do? What can we REALLY do? Before you shout, "Let's stop Animal Testing", do you want you yourself to be a test subject?

Sorry, but all this work and effort, is seriously ... worth it?

So.. O levels Higher Mother Tongue has just ended.

It may seem like freedom .. but think again.

this is only the first few 2.4km NAPFA test you have taken..
this is only the first few major hurdles you have encountered..
this is only the first few encounters with anxiety, excitement, curiousity...

ok let's get straight to the point..
this is only one of the first few exams you'll take
there is still the As, there is still your Unis, there is still that PhD, there is still that JOB...

can't slack
can slacken, but cannot slack
[Slack level: 0% |||||||||||||| 100%]

千万不可以停止，还要坚持，继续努力！

haiz .. sounds so cliche .. but that's what my parents tell me .. and also what my heart tells me..

but first thing I got home is to Switch on computer > Admire the dusty screen > Play DOTA > Dinner

oh wellz..

It is Just ONE more day!

What the hell! Just 4 more days and I am down with a flu!!! Screw my nose

oh man.. why is my internet so screwed up.. zzzz
Singnet really need some quick fixes to their screwed up system.

anyways on the lighter side, Ortus Night yesterday was darn nice!
I bet its the best in my whole 4 years in Hwachong.
Aside from the $5 dinner that we get.. I shant complain .. but you should know what it was.. at least they redeemed it with an outstanding performance ..

the emcees were really great at entertaining us.. even as Sec 3s. witty remarks and laughable jokes... even though some parts were rather an anticlimax .. but even then .. they are really good! thumbs up!

oh yes... yew wei's band was DARN GREAT! (other than the 2nd song) .... Zhenyang's nice voice ... the 3 uber guitarists (Jon, Yew wei and Wei Leong) and of course... LEONG the drummer... really good cohesion .. pounded our hearts and everyone else!!

haha another unforgettable one : teacher's musical..
didnt know the singing talent in my Physics and Chem teacher for 2 years! hehe .. the songs they sang were rather old songs =/ ... but nevertheless they did it very well.. very well indeed....
HOWEVER.. the closing abit zzzz lolz....

overall... almost everyone got darn high haha ... but not all the time..
at least for me .. I enjoyed myself =) .

YEA!

Batch Dinner 2007 : Framed Reality has just ended. Tossing and turning, unable to sleep for 30 minutes already. Drats, the tea. Downed quite a number of cups... But such dinner tea should usually be decaffeinated. Maybe its my preoccupied mind.

Looking at the key people that made the dinner such a nice success. They are all leaders. Hwa Chong is a place for leaders, nurturing leaders, developing leaders. By the time you are Secondary 4, you should be a leader in a certain "industry".

But not all.
Looking at my own, I think I have rather not lived up to the standard. I am neither here nor there. I am not notable for anything, I aint even good in what I do for my own CCA - computing. Maybe I am just an attention-seeker, but hey... what do I have? The things I like, I do not excel.
In a class where competition is really stiff, getting 1.00 is nothing but common. Ok add in some errors, 1.1 to 1.2. I bet more than 50% of my class mates can at least get the Outstanding Student Award, a couple will go on to get the All Round Excellence award. But me? Nothing. Even with all the additions from ACE and CA marks. All the people who are emceeing, "celebrating" tonight, are all those who are notable, have good grades and so forth. Whereas for me? Hmm I really wonder.

I guess I was overconfident, or maybe I am actually just dumb in the first place. I always say I want to change, but when I am alone, things do not turn out for the better.
Maybe I am too over zealous or something.. or issit the environment, or just me alone?

I apologise if I have insulted you in any form in anyway or another.

woots
left with:

Chinese composition
Geography
More Mathematics

and we are done.
omgosh its so near!

woots Chemistry exam over!

Final listings:

English
Chinese
Mathematics
Biology
Physics
Chemistry
Humanities (History)
Humanities (Geography)

Days to go: 8 days

woo hooo i have never felt scammed by an examination. mug so hard, yet the questions test so little about what I thought would be a main topic =X

to think again, that means I will have a higher chance of scoring better.. so hmm I WISH THIS WOULD BE THE SAME FOR THE REST AS WELLL!!

Was using Jia Xi's Score Sheet Tabulation Spreadsheet (Excel) to compute my results. And I realised that I need 90% for my Chinese EOY to get an A1. = = that's so .. err hard ?

Anyways, just realised I have never ever touched MSN Messenger icon/logo for like, days or even weeks? Well, not sure la. Hmmmm.. preoccupied with mugging / studying that I forgot about it. No wonder I find my nights a bit odd, zzz a bit quiet.
In addition I am also unable to use MSN Messenger since my father monitors me almost every hour, and he is now smart enough to look for flashing red bars at the bottom of the screen. >.<

Well, just 4 more days to English EOY. (End of years, in case you still did not know) Oh my, looking at my oh excellent! results. I must indeed buck up! oh my god, just 4 mroe days. or rather 3 more days if you count the night as over.
Looking at my friends, all feverishly or fevour-ishly mugging, kinda panic ! AHH!!

haiz
exams are here
just 3 more weeks, and I can slack a bit....
b4 O levels Higher MT T_T OH MAN !! WHY!!!

ok.
shall blog this time

well .. 2 more weeks oh well .. sianz

somehow exams have displaced most of my questions that I used to question myself ...

hmm
must do well otherwise screwed .. haiz

I dont want this.
but I have to do it.

My results have totally gone rock-bottom. Second last in class. MSG of 3.89. WHAT THE F**K ?

man i screwed up totally.
maybe I am over confident, over complacent, did not study .. oh well..

shit
whatever the case.. i am going to mugging mode from today onwards.. already have a schedule ahead of me.

all I wish is to have a peaceful surrounding to study, do not want my parents to add salt to the wound.
oh well...

kevin seng shall b away from 19th to 29th August. if you know why. =)

heh. =P

shells are made to protect,
but sometimes it can be a curse.

sadly, this world calls for people to put on a new coat, mask, shells that hides the true self. Sometimes it is essential to succeed, sometimes it is abused.

Bottled up feelings are one of the most dangerous things to have, especially when the bottle does not get emptied once in a while.
Storing up all these thoughts compresses the mind, removes space for other happy moments.

Release all of them if you need, there are always people around you that can offer a lending ear. Do not fear, do not detest, do not hate. It may sound altruistic, but that's the way to being happy.

hey, again.. thanks to Joel, mwhahha look at this:

even if you are a science freak or detest science, this should be some interesting thing:



http://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/electromagnetic_spectrum.png

Fun.
I am rushing my homework and now I am playing host to some additional virus from Earth.
Yay.

I have already lost my nose in a marathon, I hope I dont land myself in music.

in lieu of stressed,
Kevin Seng decided to look for some random jokes...

The Little Girl and the Wrinkles

A little girl is sitting on her grandpa's lap and studying the wrinkles on his old face. She gets up the nerve to rub her fingers over the wrinkles. Then she touches her own face and looks more puzzled.

Finally the little girl asks, "Grandpa, did God make you?"

"He sure did honey, a long time ago," replies her grandpa.

"Well, did God make me?" asks the little girl.

"Yes, He did, and that wasn't too long ago," answers her grandpa.

"Boy," says the little girl, "He's sure doing a lot better job these days, isn't He?"


Gorilla Control

A man calls the Animal Control in his town, because there is a crazed gorilla on his roof, and he can't figure out how to get it down safely. Soon, a van pulls up, and an old man gets out, carrying a small dog, a baseball bat, and a gun. He hands the man the gun.

"Okay, here's what we do. I'm going to go up onto your roof, and threaten the gorilla with this baseball bat until he falls down. When he falls down, this little dog will bite him in the balls until he's incapacitated."

"Great," says the man. "But what's the gun for?"

"In case I fall down instead of the gorilla -- shoot the dog."

I loved you then.
I still loved you now.
But this love now is more of a friendship bond.

But I do hope we can continue this friendship bonds forever.

I must change.

Rope in others to help me change for the better. Yes!

now I can only do positive stuff ..
if I say anything negative .. i'll get hounded by some people for sure ...

so what is opinions then?

on the brighter note, tommorrow is national day celebrations..

really sorry to those who have to do sai gang tommorrow whilst the rest are .. enjoying themselves

to whoever who have read my blog ...
and to all my friends.

I appreciate and thank you for being with me all these years =) ..
and songs to help fill the void
especially to those who have taken time off to read all my thoughts..

not trying to butter or curry ... but just feeling it now ...
complexities
predicaments
confusions

...
what exactly do you want?

is it due to my misexpression again?
what can I do to earn your forgiveness?

such is the restrictive power of language...

just realised I am stuck in 2 predicaments
I want to deny, but I know I cant deny .. and if I do not deny .. I might be mistaken ... oh man .. go either way and I still end up worst ... 进退两难.

if only lives were movies
if only speech were songs
if only actions were dance
if only humans were characters


...

just went for a <10km hike at the Rifle Range route. Its in between Bukit Timah Nature Reserve and Macritche Reservoir.
Something special is.. I am trying out the army boots of my father's =D .

Going OBS in.. 2 weeks?
so must try out the boots..

seriously.. 0 CUSHION! ..
but stable nia.. press against my ankle and stuff xD ..
heheh

can't wait ..

wow... away from the PC for 2 days non-stop. literally... omgawd...
hmmmm
kinda wondering what allowed me to do this?

haha thanks libo for lending me Deathly Hallows..
oh man.. finished it in less than 8 hours.. =D .. i reckon!
JK really has an intriguing sense of humour, and able to play with several words.. omgawd.. just love her bombastic words... how come I cant think of these words whenever I am writing a composition? .. hmm ... that's the fun of narratives.. all those description coming me... just wondering the time I last used the word "lurched" .. lolz..
well.. shant really comment much.. but after reading my friends' blogs, and the blog post about their view on Harry Potter, I agree with them lots.. =)
go and read.. even if you know the ending.. its still a good read...

oh man. why the sudden chillness in the air? why the dreadful silence of sadness hanging? ... negative thoughts fuel the Darker side of everyone, yet positive thoughts bring light to these abysses..
cheer up!
如果一山还有比一山高，那可说一山还有比一山矮？
why think about these things... how about those people who cant even get 3 meals or day, or a nice pair of shoes?

just watched "Children of Heaven". Its the original idea that made Jack Neo direct "跑吧孩子". Well, you can obviously tell certain things... there are the neglected.. and the rich.. hmmmm .... maybe we are a bit too 软?

thanks for those who asked me about the event.. at least I have cleared my head a bit =) .. now working on the 1000 word essay as a means to "repent"...

ah ... all goes well.. erm hmmm?

the "talk" went pretty well... I am ok with anything.. scold me, lecture me... but please... never ever.. do that...
I have borne the brunt of my folly. And I truely appreciate the experience. It seemed that someone had planned it all along, and I kind of predicted it.. but dared not take the risk... Overall I am thankful for that person to let me understand me better....

at least my conscience is now clear, and I think the 1000-word essay is the ticket to my normal self.. no more nightmares, deep thoughts... hmmmm ...

however... I actually uncovered much more stuff.. the school is indeed a political arena... really... never ever say things.. cause you never know the backlash that might occur.......

just think about it

(if you want to know more.. just ask me)

Looking at my own personality, ENSP..

I found out this interesting relation: "ENSP : More starts than finishes".

And I find this VERY relevant to me..
for me.... its not just any finishes, but rather CRAP and LOUSY finishes.
I think I have to buck up... but HOW?
HOW am I going to do it? ... =(

man..
furthermore... the people I want to work with... "reject" me? ... maybe cuz I am too noob already? ... I attempted in 3,4 competitions, yet I won nothing... whereas for my friends, participate in the same one, win like... zzz ..

oh man..
seriously...

what's wrong

闲，我已经站在地雷了！
throughout the months.. I have been keeping silent, quiet... and now I have to pay for all this 避开-ness.

well... now it all depends on myself... i caused it, i asked for it.. so I face the music myself.

ah...

jia xi so pr0 lor..
win liao lor

then me
dunno what..

wa
just finished watching Dreamcatcher on Channel 5.

it is an adaptation from the story Dreamcatcher by Stephen King..
rather interesting... there's the usual story plot... but still it is exciting and gripping.

hmm i think I should read more of such stuff ... getting spooked aint my cup of tea >.<

Stephen King, by the way, is a famous and excellent horror story teller.

this marks my centurian post! =D
should post maybe longer.. hmm ? =D

anyways was surfing around the net, stuck at an integration question (hate them)... then found this uber cool, good website : http://www.angelfire.com/bug/calc/integral/index.html. It seriously rox man I tell you!
Just put in a function, it'll integrate for you!!!
however, you must input your stuff properly
for example,
tan x > tan(x)
log x > log(x)

I havent tried for base e. yea..

haha go see yourself


anyways.. today we HAD A HALF DAY. OMGAWD!!! WOOTS... all the achievements.. but only 2 hrs of half day >< .. but anyways its still a discount?

went home.. and started playing = = ..
darn early.. lolz


furthermore.. today rain like siao siao siao.
crazy la..
but the weather was nice lorhz =) ..
so cooling.. no need fan.. can sleep LIKE .. *who ah* ...

Its a beautiful day....

A nice song by U2.... nice music =) ...

and I really hope I get one in the future...

Just realised I screwed up several things.. oh man .. sian....

I just wish the songs I am listening to .. can be real
I just wish the dreams I am pondering over .. can be real
I just wish the people I am wanting to meet .. can be real

I am not sure already.

watching Live In The Undergrowth now...

you all should just see how zai the animals are... more brilliant than we humans....
using "primitive" methods to great effectiveness and efficiency...

omg..

to think the small 8-legged spiders.. small but unique..

omg omg omg.... zai

I think we humans need to really sit down and watch them..

I have been randoming throughout the day...
however.. randoming to myself only..

thoughts.
ideas.

whatever you call it

不知道我如何这么样
天天又想同样的回事
却不能又不会处理它
可能我太着急了，
可能我太着慌了，
可能我太糊涂了，
什么也不懂不会
只好默默地过生活。。。

======================

and I just felt very surprised and ... cold... after hearing something

I am not sure why.
I am not sure how.

Friends seem to come and go, arrive and leave.
Some go quietly, others with a bang.
Some go off gradually, others in an instant.

Some come slowly, others click on the spot.
Some come heartily, others through unkempt silence.

but.. looking around...
how many do I really have in fact?

how many can I confide in?
how many can I share my worries, my happiness?

not sure.
not really sure.

am I losing more than I am gaining?

=================================

then again, this thought seem to be ringing in my head.. usually at around this time..
the time when I am pondering, thinking, recalculating, recounting... about me, myself and I

" Destiny has its own way of recorrecting things... "

Let me see if it works, because I need one severely now.

well...
just created the above image in 10 minutes lol lol ..

random pix ? ..
hmm ..

does it tell feelings in my heart? or not?

it is up for anyone to tell...

whoa... love the uber impromptu assembly performance today by 4 very pro gentlemen in our class!

Love you Yew Wei for your outstanding dexterity with the guitar! =) .. haha... even though I have heard it before.. it is still as good to listen!! LOVELY man....

Music seriously change the perception of a person...
Seeing Gerald and Zong Ning playing their musical instruments... (with all passion and concentration displayed in their faces).. listening to the melodious music
omg... somehow i just.. kinda... admire them =) ..


haha somehow am proud of my class today .. heh

They say being happy is good for your health.

I am elated!

This is getting crap, sick and I am bloody tired of this..

Waking up:
Aching limbs,
Pissed,
Lethagic
Eyes itch
Clothes stinking from sweating during sleeping

In School:
Running away from teachers for certain things
Poor grades
Feeling inferior thanks to others

At Home:
Have to answer rhetorical questions over and over again.
Then... think and feel about .. other stuff..
Feel like asking others, but cant.

Sleep:
I just wish .. everyday could be just like this
Somehow I forget all my worries when I am about to sleep..


What's wrong?

Gone. Gone gone.

I thought it must have disappeared for a few years... but it must have been a facade..
oh well ...
the signals are now clear. oh well...

can you all please just ... dun be so nosey and pokey?
its irritating..

i am trying to change, yet you are holding me with a leash.
i changed for good things, you still bug me with history.

what the hell..

and the thing is you are living in the same house as me

its so freaking hot!... zzzzzzz

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as driven and ambitious. Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

Its a new term.
Hectic, but gonna be cool.
Busy, but gonna be worth it.
Stressful, but there are friends around.
Fun, cuz you are around!

First day of school term, unlike the first day of school year, there will be the usual scolding and lecturing by displeased teachers about our attitude..
*but seriously.. which student wants to do work during the holis*
Other than that.. I dare say today was rather slack =P .
haha.. some teachers were in relatively good mood.. wow . keep that up !! =X

at least I managed to rush through some work.. well .. still feeling sick.. and owing more and more work.
gotta spend 1 afternoon rushing through all such things.. haiz..
zzz

ciaoz.

how how ... 2 more days .. woots

i totally wasted, goofed off my precious time .. oh well how dumb can I be? But then .. how foolish I can be. no use regretted or complaining..

last 2 days to finish off my remaining work!

gosh ..
is my memory failing me now? ..
i keep forgetting.. misplacing my things..

now i jsut did that on others.. and he is very very angry..

GAH!! AHH

happy father's day..

and to me as well .. a father-to-be (but after a few more years? =P )

oh god..

watched the last episode of "Planet Earth" yesterday.
Its a weekly documentary, Every Wednesday 10.00pm on Arts Central ... and as the name goes, it tells you about Planet Earth and her wondrous, amazing, meticulous wildlife.

Yet I wonder, are we humans a bit too much?
Looking at all the magnificent wildlife, flora and fauna, breathtaking landscape, I cannot just sit there and stare fish-eyed in awe. It was just brilliant and beautiful. Maybe "beautiful" undermines the intricate ecology behind every ecosystem that they showed.

Animals, simple animals.. are able to survive in the harshest environment, living off what we deem as poison. Animals also work together, cooperate, in order to fight, or flight.
Yet why is there still this discrepancy between them and us?

We are just evolved forms, able to comprehend what we know as "languages". Yet other animals.. they do communicate, but in the series of squeaks, and other incomprehensible "language" exclusive to them.

Yet, we are taking this world like our own. Look around you, problems here.. day and night. Pollution, over-fishing, deforestation.
Countries sign pacts, go for meetings, agree over issues in general talks.. yet.. is anything done?

But still .. the human race will never understand, nor learn, not want to change. Its all part of evolution, human greed. Unlike predators.. whom once they finish their lunch, do not eat anymore... but us?

think again .. are we so called "sentient beings" ?


P.S. there's another documentary soon .. also same time slot.. If I rmb it comes out in July.. called In the Undergrowth ..

maybe...
i am not sure why ...
.
certain memories fade away like dust blown by the wind
whereas others can be as heavy and stone like rock.
why are some so easy to forget..
why are some so easy to remember?

i am not sure why to ...
how ever.. what's worst is to keep it all up in one-self...
memories.. embrace. them .. enjoy them .. relieve them ...

pain, suffering, anguish, hatred, jealousy, envy...
happiness, delightedness, enlightenment, surprise, excitement...

all the words.. to describe them ..
but still ... it matters on whether you want to remember, or forget..

what's done is done..
scold, "niao", bully, tease, shout, talked back at, cursed, swear
so what? its done!
rememebr them again .. and laugh at it., look at the bright side.... although its hard.. but time to come.. yu'll learn..

however, there are some times .. which you hope, you admire, you want.. yet you cant get it .. that... is one of the most difficult things to overcome ...

and i have that problem..

gosh .. sick how many times already T_T

.. maybe i should really sleep more .. gah..

darn .. not sure why ..
maybe i am ignorant? or maybe it just changed all of a sudden?

i can still remember my childhood times.. everyone day 5pm i would be downstairs at the nearby playground .. mingling.. having fun.. chasing, catching, cracking young-children jokes....
there was no problem with society.. as it seems..

but now i am 16.. sitting down in front of a laptop..
has the trend become like this?

look around you... the traditional flip-flops.. once no one wore it.. then now .. everyone seem to be wearing it .. furthurmore it is of certain brands..
sneakers have also come into play... hmm?

in addition to that...
instead of bermudas .. everyone seem to be wearing jeans.. even then .. some jeans have been purposely cut / torn .. hmm?

then for bags... sling bags.. ever since sec 1.. i have noticed that there has been a sudden trend of carrying sling-bags.. the last time i seen one carrying a sling bag is our neighbourhood postman ?
now everyone seem to be carrying them .. and again .. there has to be a certain brand to it..

i wonder...
there are other 1001 things that have changed..
but is it just part of societal change?
change due to modernisation? or ... signs of affluence in everyone?

well .. *shrug*

crap la.
why...

why am i slacking... ?

can anyone help me ..!!! grrr ... zzz aaahhhhhh ..

argh.
lost.

hmm
holidays

so far so good

completing my homework.. slowly.. (yet surely) =D
but then again .. i feel .. something's missing..
everyday i wake up.. i go to the computer .. DANG IT SPOILT.. then i go to TV and stone there..

but recently caught a relatively mild but devastating cold...
slept.. or rather stoned on the bed for like 5 hours each day (while you are awake) ..
grrr .. now better =)

then again .. i am bored
especially during the afternoon whilst others .. go to movies. go to LAN. go play basketball/pool. or even mug together ... i am stoning at home..

or maybe its something wrong with me? .. hmmm
i am not sure why
not sure how...
but then again..
other than me i suspect something's wrong inside...
inside ...
who .. i wont say..


then again ..
well.. holidays.. relax .. zzzz
but i think .. there's too much relaxing involved.. somehows the holidays dun seem to be that... nice after all?

cheer up! cheer up! cheer up! ... what they say. throw them away.. but then again ... easier said than done... hmmm ... =( ..
well .. guess the June holidays aint so fun after all ...

blerh.
wasting too much time
but heck
1st week of holidays devoted to slacking

heheehhee
just came back (or rather 4 hrs ago) from teaching Primary 5/6 examination skills.
hah a rather lively bunch =)
although there were still some black sheep (like me :p, sleeping in class), but the rest were generally active. . =D

after the whole thing.. I was teaching mathematics skills... things like Mental Sums, patterns etc.
I also showed them the lewt method to solve the very classic "Heads and Legs in a farm" question, by using assumption. I think you might know a bit about it haha.

THEN...
At the end of the whole thing
then this Primary 6 came up to me and asked me this:

" There were 80 people and 85 plates shared. 3 Children shared one plate, and 1 adult ate 2 plates. So how many adults and children were there? "

and he added

" How do i go about this using the assumption method? " .

LOL LOL LOL LOL ... you know what
.. the 4 of us were like freaking STUMPED? Sec 4 stumped by this Question? o.O
we used algebra lol lol . but its not what he wanted... .. but then after a while...

we
realised
something so simple
it actually crossed our mind .. -.-

so much for being Sec 4s.... and yu know what.. it came out in Primary 5 Exams O_O !!!


ahaha
after that.. came home
sleep sleep sleep
hahaha
dunno leh
super slack mood
heck work
throw them aside
kabish!!!!

BLERH!

i shant waste all my time in this holiday
or so called holiday

but then
i have to enjoy too! =)

haiz
maybe i shld start giving up on my hopes and wishes..
work on practical stuff first
etc. homework projects and more..
what the hell . busy like ****
yet i am throwing all my work aside
zzzz

wake up dude...

back from class chalet.

well rather fun
watched 3 movies in a row
slept @ 5am (again)
so cool
so fun
and scary

Mr Bean's holiday was superb
just made my day hahah =) omgawd it was like ROFL ROFL
then later turned to HBO and watched Skeleton Key
rather interesting plot
climax.. its not really a horror show.. although its so intense it could be considered as a horror show.
lol lol

=X

but still
chalet
haiz....
lotsa of things to describe
but well.. enojyed myself in the end =)

WHATEVER!

the ad isnt lame.. yes it isnt lame..

they are flooding back
whenever i hear a particular song
or rather 2

my mouse hovers it
my mind in a dilemma
should i click
or should i shift it away

if i click
what can i do?
i am a person with no words
i cant talk
i cant communicate
i just ..

if i shift away
nothing else will happen

so i just shift my mouse away

dreams
just some of the fantasies many either love or detest.

lately
been dreaming alot of stuff!
not sure.. becoming like you? becoming like myself?

wow .. lotsa of dreams .. even dreamt when i had my 3hr nap o.O
and the dreams.. rather interconnected
featured people, people i love, people i like, people i met, people i hate, people i detest.. wait then again .. i dont really "detest" or "hate" a person .. hmmm
in the limelight were all the activities i love, soccer, gaming, chatting, crapping, sneaking.. all and all
the storylines rather weird,
but nevertheless.. it was like a dream of reality

cool aint it?
or bad
hmm
at least .. there's something for me to see even when i am asleep .. haha

well ...
1 week and 3 days more to June holidays... but count off Thurs and Fri since its SLACK! Chalet + Star gazing (wth?) ... other stuff
mwhahhahaha fun fun fun...

wellz.. today was rather slack.
or rather THIS WHOLE ****** week?!!
lol lol lol ...

btw... Just learnt of this video rather recently (how lag i am...)
We Live In Singapura

Go watch it. it rox (or sux if you find it rather lame) .. but still.. it is its silliness that is the funny part. Talks mainly about Singapore's history (and current affairs) .. all in a simple song.. sung by our very own Hossan Leong! wheeee...

looking at the rain outside the window
staring towards empitness
the pitter patter of rain drops
just can't seem to ease those out of my mind

what can i do?
not just sit and wait
action before i regret
but watch where you step

things have rather turned odd these few days
maybe its just my imagination
and hopefully its just another hallucination
or i am crazy

so..

love you there.. who been reading my blog.. haha...
may the best be with you =D

for some reason... i feel like having a wishlist! so prolly can get them during my June holidays (or so as it seem?)

1. A new pair of slippers =D [ Its time I change into thongs..mhwhahha ]
2. Extra RAM for my laptop [ Probably another 256MB RAM upgrade.. Me aint rich =( ]
3. Complete SEE2 + other projects including Roots and Shoots [ YEA! ]
4. Well-versed in basic Chinese.. [ hahahha .. dream! ]


YEA! not sure why
today was devoid of feelings.. hmmmm ....

is this all a fallacy?
why must it go in this way?

why is the world so crap?
everyday, listen to a murder/robbery/homicide/rape .. what ever the case...
songs blare about forgiveness, quip about peace... yet do anyone give a damned?
can all this stop?
or will money still be the root of all evil?

is this a right decision for me?
did i chose the wrong thing after all?
or did it do more good than bad?

how?...
sabbaticals gone?
sabbatials gone?


ahhhhhhhh noooo

so much fun..
luv the 4 of us + Ms Ting! Thanks for that brilliant lunch wheeee
one of the rare moments ate at such restaurant. =D

omgawd...

back to school
IHC corrections
IHE Revision
2 weeks got IHE EXAM
WHYY!!??W?!?
CANNOT CELEBRATE @ ALL?!!?

AAAHHH

omg.
been sleeping alot lately... good or bad? .. =X ..
well .sleeping is good anyways..

haha..
this week kinda rox.
how come always physically tired after each sabbatical? ..zzz
anyways.. aaaa

i want minutes to midnight by Linkin' Park =D

who want to watch movie ? zzzz

begone.. those dreaded memories of mine
never shalt I get you back again
deep within, my mind may wither
strong as ever, my heart will go on

whirlwind of thoughts
contemplating confusing
agonizing anger
peaceful war

the silent war of words
will have to stop

lol china won

badminton is a nice game to play to forget all your stuff =D

thanks..

ironic...
history seems to be repeating itself.. except this time i am the victim...

whatever it is... it aint good .. all such fury... hmm .. not sure how to release it...
i feel blessed to have a natural "cleanser", being able to forget such things for most of the time... usually whilst in company of other people...
yet with others... the chilling aura still remains ...

then again .. today was Open House.. LOL ..Hwa Chong Open House was like people spammage....
but then .. so few came to our EP3 ... yea .. smart... go and showcase all ther est...
but then again... the other sections of the school were rather interesting .. esp the Orchestras and bands.. displaying astounding performaces ... hahaha

now watching AVIVA... well .. FAST-PACED, brilliant shots, deceptive moves... omgosh i wanna learn them ALL!! =D
but still .. i dun have the discipline to learn them.. haiz .... =(

is it so ..... ???

i have lost you
i have gained you

what ever the case... its time to crumble

Coffee overdose.... or rather caffeine overdose

omgosh ..
just had my first overdose..
imagine 3 cups of coffee in less than 2 hours .. really not gg

my stomach feels like vomiting, although i cant really vomit...
my mind sometimes goes for a spin...
and my limps tremble incessantly .. aaahhhh

coffeee ......... noooooo

this is my first time .. aaaahh

HAHAHA.. THANKS ALOT GUYS!!

<3 you!!

Thank you qiao wei,ali,lisheng,wen shi, shi qi, dione, melvin, wei pin,shawn wee, shu fan, darrell ang.. (right from my MSN nick lol lol)
=D

+ others!! haha tell me if i missed you =D =D

especially dione who gave me a box and 6 cans... (+ that random kelly)

let's count the perks of being 16! =D

Yearning, or yearning to be yearned
Jealousy, or envy
Suspicion, or make believe
Confusion, or stupid
Attention seeker, or boisterious
Loner, or lonely
Irony, or Ideallic

whatever the case...

heck!

we know teachers.. accept late homework .. (readily)

don't dey?
haha

Sundays.. are just there .... for the sun to fill your day ..

sadly in real life,

Sundays.. are just there .... for homework to fill your day

WTH LAR..

SAVE PAPER. PROTECT THE EARTH. BEGONE HOMEWORK AND TESTS!

you know what..
the school rox...

just got black out @ the computer labs during our CCA (EP3) training... smart man..

anyways...
oh yes...
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming
TESTs are coming

and we are

GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG
GG

gawd.. its on my teeth already!

pain pain ~

just another stay-up-late night

wtf. so much work

yes!
less than 20 days to playing pool!
omg ...

*but can I be admitted in without showing my IC?* =p

ok.
its 1.48AM on my laptop's clock

stuff to do.. things to do..
why is school like this?

anyways.. spent ALL my 5 hours using my lappie making an animation about copyright ..
yet still 80% done.. haiz..

omgosh .. just for .. let's say.. 1 minute of viewing pleasure?

hmm .. but i'll do what it takes.. to get that coveted prize =D

anyways .... i just drank beer.. that shld explain my random nick on my MSN at roughly 11pm
beer is the best medicine
just drink it
i 4get most of my stuff -hic-

emo-ing is not the way to go
positivity!
yes i can see things in the positive light..

i know i can do it
you can do it boy
just shut off.. shut those negative thoughts...
and look forward into life....










even though it might be pretty tough to do so...

this is screwed

first, my father wants to enroll me to yoga .. wtf lar every Saturday .. its for my sleep lar.. zzzz wth

second, my father confiscates my stuff ... my laptop .. wth.. only return me just now.. why? just cuz i was using it to check my email whilst doing maths

third, my 2 pens just spoilt on me .. wth.....

wth... what's freaking wrong????

this is crap man ....

this is darn screwed..

i am blardy.. damned pissed at my .... grrrr grah grah!!!
how to put it.. my parents?

can't they just stop their freaking nagging once and for all?
everything I do, they just keep ... kao peing and crapping... and criticise me.. without knowing what is actually going on? grrr
when i have done something good.. nothing comes out of their mouth
when i have done something bad (or rather in their sense).. criticism, harsh words all flow out of their mouth like running water..

what the **** is wrong with them man?

give me a break OK?

ok.. the week rox

nothing much been done, but who cares really =X
the weekend is here... again for work T_T

well, at least they are projects.. which I kinda want to do =D
sian man...

stuck at home

my father just got pissed with me last night
spoke to me in his "pro" pronounciation.. i couldnt figure out.. keep "huh"ing and he became pissed at me =O

zzzzzz
they rock

omgosh look at this .. WORK NOTHING BUT WORK...

you cant see the words clearly, but the long list should be enough.. its not like i put.. 1 chem worksheet or something.. its like maths worksheet x2 .. those! omg omg

crap holidays? 1 of them is holiday homework =p the rest.. is just given on the freaking first week of school??!?!?? CRAP

what is this?

Meaning of life?

What is the meaning of life. Question yourself this.

Yes, you have read books like, "Tuesdays with Morrie", "5 people you will meet in heaven". You hear life snippets on Newsradio 93.8FM "A Slice of Life". You attend talks. You hear podcasts.
(How did I know about all those? Cuz I have read them myself)

However, how many of you have actually reflected? How many of you have actually changed?
For those who have changed, congratulations, you have attained self-actualisation and self-enlightenment.

For me, I am not. I know for that few minutes whilst absorbing those "inspiration" materials I feel at ease, enlightened, self-aware, but once I put down the book, its back to the hectic day-to-day schedule of school.

Why must life be this way?
Why is the world so hectic?
Why must there be struggles here and there?

All thanks to the human nature. Yes, human nature.

I am sure most of you are like me. Or rather, you are forced to face life in this manner. For those who have reached self-actualisation, most of them, if not all, actually have enough to keep them going until their end point. The rest however, are forced to face life, because we do not have enough to keep us going!

Like me, I got no money, no income. I am a student. Reading all these books, so? so? so? After I read them, I have to plunge back into this eternal grip of schooling, homework and projects.
Let's say I remove projects, since I have the choice of taking them up or not.
But for school? Do I have a choice?

You can say I can skip school, but hell no. We need schooling just to get the job we want. That's the sad thing isnt it? I can skip my homework, but hell no. We need homework, to get the grades we need just to get the job we want. So.. how? HOW ? I agree that schooling and grades will ensure "top quality" job-seekers, however, isnt the schooling just a little wee too much?
Daily, 7am to 2.30pm, sometimes even dragging on to 5pm. Life?

Let's carry on for adults.
Everyday, 7am to 5pm. The daily work schedule. Yes. Everyday the routine goes like this
Sleep > Eat > Work > Eat > Sleep
Other than weekends. You call that life? Unless you are so passionate for the job, then I must congratulate you. But how many really find this life?

I know this might be a rather sudden and random post (this is what my blog is about), but ask yourself:
What is the meaning of life? Merely just to get up the corporate ladder? Merely just to get good grades?

I just feel... ......
funny..

Teasing, or pleasing

Hmm... when you call someone coward, sissy. or just teasing him... are you in fact the one who lose out?

Let's say..
It happens to be drizzling.. one guy (person A) uses his umbrella.. his friends tease him.. saying he is sissy/coward and alike..

But.. in the end, A would not get wet, and will not stink,smell from all the rain and muck, unlike the rest. In the end.. the rest got sick. A doesnt.

So let's think about it.. is the "sissy" person actually a smarter person, since he does things that are intellectually better. And for the rest of the people who wants to be gungho and stand in the rain... are they actually the losers, since they will in fact get the taste of their own medicine (etc. getting sick)? hmm

Let's have another scenario

A staircase.. and a group of friends dare each other to jump down a flight of 8,9 steps? One guy (B) decides to just walk down, and suffers the tagname of "coward" from his friends. the rest jump, and one broke a leg..
so.. is B smarter, or cowardly? Are the rest just stupid and plain show off?
B took a "safer" route, and ends up in one piece. The rest, possibly due to experience, or "know" how to "do it", and therefore able to jump without much injuries. But they already place danger to themselves.. so hmm..

think about it..
do "Cowards", "Sissies" are really what they are called as? Or are they smarter?

A new Beginning...

Sec 4.
Time when I wear baggy pants (although my parents disapprove of it !!! )
Time when I can say.. hey you junior (although not shortie)
Time when I can stay in air-con classroom (although only from 10am onwards)
Time when I get a new bag! (although it was given as my Sec 1 birthday gift)
Time when I get to wear brown coloured uniform... (although I do not look like a Sec 4 yet lol)
And I get to look taller/older :) (although my face tells it all)
Time when I get to meet new teachers (although some are rather .. erhmm)
Time when I get to go out! Play pool and all those wheeee (although I bet they'll be unconvinced I am 16)
Time when I ....

hmm cant think of more yet.. but i think that is basically .. all it is .. wheee!!

anyway.. HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR EVERYONE! .. GET ELATED BY MY BELATED GREETING.. WOOOOOO!!! :) :) :) :)

New year... of?

New year.
2007! Wooohoooo
Everyone is 1 year older (in a few months time)

Cheer Cheer!
However.... hmm .... think about it..

Another year of
1)Studying
2)Paying bills
3)Getting stressed out
4)Being tired

omg.. why!! why a new year?!?? aaaahhhhh

well.. that was not so optimistic after all..