oh my god, my ankle is hurting again.
it seems like I have been wearing my ankle guard for too long, and hence pressing upon my ankle.
Gah.
Can it heal faster? Please! I want to regain my freedom!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
My Brilliant Birthday
I have to thank the 40-odd people who all wished me happy birthday on my 18th birthday.
I daresay I am really really really touched by the combined efforts by so many people
Never had such a celebration before - and this is mainly thanks to weisin!
I want to thank
- the people who wrote in the combined sketchbook: rhea, pearlyn, baihui, mei, sirius lin, ,joshua, kwang yueh, lowell, zhao bo, charles, edwin, felix, jia jun, brenda, eugene, emain, caitong, ziyan, kim yung, trixie, theresa, rachel, huifang, alton, den, jinni and WEISIN! (I hope I remembered everyone, because I am basing this off my memory now)
- those who wished me in school: junlin, amanda, jia han
- those who wished me via smses [excluding those who were included in the sketchbook]: weiyee, qiao wei (its alright! sleep more la, 3 hours is alright), chinying and ming xuan (WTH MING XUAN, you THINK YOU TALL AH! SMALL JUNIOR still want niao me ah! XD )
- my 灯光 people!
- those who facebook
In addition, there was a mudpie cake from Island Creamery! Haha, those who were lucky enough to witness it got to eat it, which was really really good I must say! All the love inside. (oh my, I keep spamming the word "love")
I must apologise to 灯光 for not being able to get the cake - in case I get cake overdose. But then again, I appreciate you all all the same :) Lovely juniors, great seniors!
See so many people!
I feel loved. I feel super loved! Oh yay!
Every page in the sketchbook is just ... heartwarming. I never have been felt so much appreciated and important before. thank you guys (and gals)
I will treasure every thing you all have done, especially you, who have put in so much so much effort. Damn, the bench mark is set so high >.< size="2">I shall start planning for birthdays now
I daresay I am really really really touched by the combined efforts by so many people
Never had such a celebration before - and this is mainly thanks to weisin!
I want to thank
- the people who wrote in the combined sketchbook: rhea, pearlyn, baihui, mei, sirius lin, ,joshua, kwang yueh, lowell, zhao bo, charles, edwin, felix, jia jun, brenda, eugene, emain, caitong, ziyan, kim yung, trixie, theresa, rachel, huifang, alton, den, jinni and WEISIN! (I hope I remembered everyone, because I am basing this off my memory now)
- those who wished me in school: junlin, amanda, jia han
- those who wished me via smses [excluding those who were included in the sketchbook]: weiyee, qiao wei (its alright! sleep more la, 3 hours is alright), chinying and ming xuan (WTH MING XUAN, you THINK YOU TALL AH! SMALL JUNIOR still want niao me ah! XD )
- my 灯光 people!
- those who facebook
In addition, there was a mudpie cake from Island Creamery! Haha, those who were lucky enough to witness it got to eat it, which was really really good I must say! All the love inside. (oh my, I keep spamming the word "love")
I must apologise to 灯光 for not being able to get the cake - in case I get cake overdose. But then again, I appreciate you all all the same :) Lovely juniors, great seniors!
See so many people!
I feel loved. I feel super loved! Oh yay!
Every page in the sketchbook is just ... heartwarming. I never have been felt so much appreciated and important before. thank you guys (and gals)
I will treasure every thing you all have done, especially you, who have put in so much so much effort. Damn, the bench mark is set so high >.< size="2">I shall start planning for birthdays now
黄城2009
Sunday night, I don't think I need to explain why I cannot to blog, even though the mood was there.
Last night I was unable to come online due to my father forcing me to sleep early.
黄城 2009 ended off with a bang!
After 3 months of hard work (Ok I did slack along the way), it finally ended off with a 精彩演出 (excellent performance). Apart from some screw ups, it was nonetheless still ... amazing.
For instance, during the matinee show, the final song for 唱一首华初的歌 failed to play. Then moxiang just singing the song music, and everyone just sang that song without the background music! Oh my, you know how sweet and nice was that? It was like an perfect imperfection! I seriously thought that that should have occured during Sunday night show, which is supposed to be the cumulation of everything of 黄城, and it will seriously create that special touch.
Being a J2, responsibilities are different. You now realise that you must indeed set a good example for your juniors, and that they are looking up to you for guidance. You have to garner support, make them bonded and lastly, make them interested. I hoped I have succeeded in them, apparently the 灯光组 juniors are seriously, good. I must really praise all of you for your hard work, dedication, enthusiasm and lastly, high-ness.
This year, I got the golden opportunity to touch the lights board :D OH YEA! you know how frigging cool it was! Haha, I literally spent... 70% of my VT time in that small air-con room! I spent so much time there I was called "techie" ... =( oh well, I shall take it as a complement! Haha. But yea, the new board is really cool, and actually quite easy to use once you get the hang of it. But to be honest, it is really good to be able to learn, and then teach 灯光 how to use it. Juniors, you have to also do so ... Ok I may sound complacent, but that's my own feeling.
I must thank alton and annie for being able to plan such wonderful lighting effects, which imo is better than last year. I hoped I didnt hindered you all in any way or another, in your rapid rush to finish plotting... (but in the end we actually finished!)
Especially alton though, I really appreciate the attempts you make to involve me in your planning of lights. Even though you are the lights designer, you provided me with opportunities for me to provide some suggestions, you know how warm that gesture was? It made me feel important, and that's one of the best thing you can ever give to your "subordinates". And the night you spent at my house, I will forever remember that, always. You injected new meaning and life into me, and made me feel proud of 黄城. Thank you alton chang.
For Baihui and Huey Jeen, OH YEA YOU GUYS ARE GREAT J2s! Wheee!!! What a great batch we were, good work to us for helping our 组长！ :D hahahaha! OH YEA!!!
and the juniors.. you ROCKS (keyword: "you", not "yous")
Overall, 黄城 was indeed successful, I am already suffering from PhD. =X
Shuffling of papers = scrollers moving
cool eh?
Last night I was unable to come online due to my father forcing me to sleep early.
黄城 2009 ended off with a bang!
After 3 months of hard work (Ok I did slack along the way), it finally ended off with a 精彩演出 (excellent performance). Apart from some screw ups, it was nonetheless still ... amazing.
For instance, during the matinee show, the final song for 唱一首华初的歌 failed to play. Then moxiang just singing the song music, and everyone just sang that song without the background music! Oh my, you know how sweet and nice was that? It was like an perfect imperfection! I seriously thought that that should have occured during Sunday night show, which is supposed to be the cumulation of everything of 黄城, and it will seriously create that special touch.
Being a J2, responsibilities are different. You now realise that you must indeed set a good example for your juniors, and that they are looking up to you for guidance. You have to garner support, make them bonded and lastly, make them interested. I hoped I have succeeded in them, apparently the 灯光组 juniors are seriously, good. I must really praise all of you for your hard work, dedication, enthusiasm and lastly, high-ness.
This year, I got the golden opportunity to touch the lights board :D OH YEA! you know how frigging cool it was! Haha, I literally spent... 70% of my VT time in that small air-con room! I spent so much time there I was called "techie" ... =( oh well, I shall take it as a complement! Haha. But yea, the new board is really cool, and actually quite easy to use once you get the hang of it. But to be honest, it is really good to be able to learn, and then teach 灯光 how to use it. Juniors, you have to also do so ... Ok I may sound complacent, but that's my own feeling.
I must thank alton and annie for being able to plan such wonderful lighting effects, which imo is better than last year. I hoped I didnt hindered you all in any way or another, in your rapid rush to finish plotting... (but in the end we actually finished!)
Especially alton though, I really appreciate the attempts you make to involve me in your planning of lights. Even though you are the lights designer, you provided me with opportunities for me to provide some suggestions, you know how warm that gesture was? It made me feel important, and that's one of the best thing you can ever give to your "subordinates". And the night you spent at my house, I will forever remember that, always. You injected new meaning and life into me, and made me feel proud of 黄城. Thank you alton chang.
For Baihui and Huey Jeen, OH YEA YOU GUYS ARE GREAT J2s! Wheee!!! What a great batch we were, good work to us for helping our 组长！ :D hahahaha! OH YEA!!!
and the juniors.. you ROCKS (keyword: "you", not "yous")
Overall, 黄城 was indeed successful, I am already suffering from PhD. =X
Shuffling of papers = scrollers moving
cool eh?
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
trouble - day 16
Ok, my feet is not in hot soup, or that'll burn.
In fact, my feet is still healing! But I still cannot run! :'( oh well... 3 more days to heal!
However, a greater trouble is looming. I really hope it will not reach us... c'mon everyone, it is just the end of the week!
I do not wish to comment any further, gosh this is really tiring.
In fact, my feet is still healing! But I still cannot run! :'( oh well... 3 more days to heal!
However, a greater trouble is looming. I really hope it will not reach us... c'mon everyone, it is just the end of the week!
I do not wish to comment any further, gosh this is really tiring.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
can run, a bit - day 14
Oh yea, I could attend 谢幕 on Saturday, which means I can run!
Ok, that running was over... 5 metres, so I don't think I will still be able to attend 2.4km run. Oh well, that's good anyway, because I have to train for my NAPFA now
Next week is going to be a damn busy week
黄城, which my parents unwillingly submitted to let their son go
(seriously, they are just too pragmatic it is getting on my nerves)
I doubt I can actually attend SYF... I want, but I have to see.
+ my paper which I have to submit by Friday
oh well.. busy busy!
Shit, I am getting too distracted these days, gah, bloody games.
Have to start mugging!
Ok, that running was over... 5 metres, so I don't think I will still be able to attend 2.4km run. Oh well, that's good anyway, because I have to train for my NAPFA now
Next week is going to be a damn busy week
黄城, which my parents unwillingly submitted to let their son go
(seriously, they are just too pragmatic it is getting on my nerves)
I doubt I can actually attend SYF... I want, but I have to see.
+ my paper which I have to submit by Friday
oh well.. busy busy!
Shit, I am getting too distracted these days, gah, bloody games.
Have to start mugging!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
again still on the road to recovery - day 11
my foot and my ankle is ok
but still cannot run, because it hurts when i do so
please heal FULLY by 公演 thank you!
Anyway, today I learnt a couple of new things
1. Doing what you like, even if for 1 or 2 more weeks, will "kill" your A levels
2. It is really hard to fathom the complexities behind each person
3. I can no longer play "goodie-goodie" or what they call "delegative leadership", I have to put a stand for what I want, not what others want
4. I have to break the barrier of my parents if I want to do what I want
5. I am indeed important - or rather I feel important, thanks for the feedback
6. Inefficiency is the key time waster
7. Books are great to keep your mind preoccupied.
but still cannot run, because it hurts when i do so
please heal FULLY by 公演 thank you!
Anyway, today I learnt a couple of new things
1. Doing what you like, even if for 1 or 2 more weeks, will "kill" your A levels
2. It is really hard to fathom the complexities behind each person
3. I can no longer play "goodie-goodie" or what they call "delegative leadership", I have to put a stand for what I want, not what others want
4. I have to break the barrier of my parents if I want to do what I want
5. I am indeed important - or rather I feel important, thanks for the feedback
6. Inefficiency is the key time waster
7. Books are great to keep your mind preoccupied.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
still on the road to recovery - day 9
I think my recovery didn't make much progress.
Maybe I have too little sleep?
Maybe I am walking around too much?
My ankle is still the same way it was yesterday, slightly swollen.
Why must the last part of recovery also coincidentally be the longest part, and the more excruciating. Its like .. "so near yet so far ", that cliche statement that we use.
But then again, just some self-restrain, and wait a few more days.. I should be alright =)
Now that I have learnt, or rather tasted what it is like to be really in their shoes
I have to make changes to the way I speak and the suggestions I make for them
Apparently I have learnt nothing,
Still my same old screwed up perception that has caused my suggestion to be vile in their eyes
One man's meat is another man's poison
I should have seen it from the start, shouldn't I?
It is really hard for me too, that feeling of helplessness
You want to lend a helping hand, but you instead unwittingly (maybe even not) throw a lifebuoy that requires certain special skill to use - which the person doesn't have
Isn't that akin to mocking the person? Or merely providing useless advice?
quickly wake up kevin seng
the words that I used are specially chosen, especially adjectives
Maybe I have too little sleep?
Maybe I am walking around too much?
My ankle is still the same way it was yesterday, slightly swollen.
Why must the last part of recovery also coincidentally be the longest part, and the more excruciating. Its like .. "so near yet so far ", that cliche statement that we use.
But then again, just some self-restrain, and wait a few more days.. I should be alright =)
Now that I have learnt, or rather tasted what it is like to be really in their shoes
I have to make changes to the way I speak and the suggestions I make for them
Apparently I have learnt nothing,
Still my same old screwed up perception that has caused my suggestion to be vile in their eyes
One man's meat is another man's poison
I should have seen it from the start, shouldn't I?
It is really hard for me too, that feeling of helplessness
You want to lend a helping hand, but you instead unwittingly (maybe even not) throw a lifebuoy that requires certain special skill to use - which the person doesn't have
Isn't that akin to mocking the person? Or merely providing useless advice?
quickly wake up kevin seng
the words that I used are specially chosen, especially adjectives
Monday, April 13, 2009
road to recovery - day 8
My foot is better now!
At least now I am certified to be able to shower without propping my leg, or need to wear ankle guard at home.
And I can take bus myself!
Oh yay, the rejuvenating taste of freedom is making me ecstatic!
But am I really healing on the inside?
My gum hurts again, what shit. really. this really sucks!
And... something else, even more inside.
I finally got the taste of what some of the people I am closest to is feeling
My attempt to put myself in my shoes kind of failed, because primarily I didn't really landed up in the same predicament as theirs. Mine was probably one off affair, but theirs was a plague to them.
At least I got a taste, somehow, but through another means
Gaming, and well, you can guess... constant dying and losing to other characters, and you should be able to get the analogy
And I tell you, to those who never really tasted constant beatings ... not as in personal goals, but rather not even able to survive (literally in the game).... it IS quite hard to imagine that feeling....
That feeling of hopelessness
That feeling of wanting to give up
That feeling of submission.
It is terrible.
I guess its a good eye opener for me.... and a great way to change my attitudes and thinking.
At least now I am certified to be able to shower without propping my leg, or need to wear ankle guard at home.
And I can take bus myself!
Oh yay, the rejuvenating taste of freedom is making me ecstatic!
But am I really healing on the inside?
My gum hurts again, what shit. really. this really sucks!
And... something else, even more inside.
I finally got the taste of what some of the people I am closest to is feeling
My attempt to put myself in my shoes kind of failed, because primarily I didn't really landed up in the same predicament as theirs. Mine was probably one off affair, but theirs was a plague to them.
At least I got a taste, somehow, but through another means
Gaming, and well, you can guess... constant dying and losing to other characters, and you should be able to get the analogy
And I tell you, to those who never really tasted constant beatings ... not as in personal goals, but rather not even able to survive (literally in the game).... it IS quite hard to imagine that feeling....
That feeling of hopelessness
That feeling of wanting to give up
That feeling of submission.
It is terrible.
I guess its a good eye opener for me.... and a great way to change my attitudes and thinking.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
released again - day 6
ok I got back my freedom to shower! Oh yea!
And the swelling subsided significantly.. ok at least I see something that LOOKS like an ankle now
=)
Many thanks to those who wished me well, really appreciated it!
Shall confine myself to my chair for the weekend! I really want it to recover quickly by Monday!
At least give me back my independence, which I was robbed of =(
Sorry to those who were inconvenienced because of me!
And I want to play basketball again - Haha I am not daunted by this incident, really!
And the swelling subsided significantly.. ok at least I see something that LOOKS like an ankle now
=)
Many thanks to those who wished me well, really appreciated it!
Shall confine myself to my chair for the weekend! I really want it to recover quickly by Monday!
At least give me back my independence, which I was robbed of =(
Sorry to those who were inconvenienced because of me!
And I want to play basketball again - Haha I am not daunted by this incident, really!
Thursday, April 09, 2009
bounded again - day 5
went to see the chinese doc again
and got my feet wrapped AGAIN
ok I think I just accidentally pushed my feet too hard - dull pain ringing in my bones
sian, another 2 days of no showering..
and I really hope I can go for 黄城 on saturday la
as well as be ok in time for monday!
sian.
and got my feet wrapped AGAIN
ok I think I just accidentally pushed my feet too hard - dull pain ringing in my bones
sian, another 2 days of no showering..
and I really hope I can go for 黄城 on saturday la
as well as be ok in time for monday!
sian.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
黄城夜韵 2009 - Yes 93.3 FM
Oh My God!
Listening to Jon Lee, Chen xi and someone else on air NOW! Right as I am blogging this!
Lol, the DJs are like hogging up the description.
... Jon Li totally ... sounds so down and so serious lolz!
"haha, 24 days left to go! What to do?"
and he called out Jason's name for .. no reason!
oh my god, state out our central theme: 力量 haha, and i heard that at least 5 times in a sentence XD
and the DJs are really good at making our show so interesting "了如指掌", "wow!"
Listening to Jon Lee, Chen xi and someone else on air NOW! Right as I am blogging this!
Lol, the DJs are like hogging up the description.
... Jon Li totally ... sounds so down and so serious lolz!
"haha, 24 days left to go! What to do?"
and he called out Jason's name for .. no reason!
oh my god, state out our central theme: 力量 haha, and i heard that at least 5 times in a sentence XD
and the DJs are really good at making our show so interesting "了如指掌", "wow!"
free, or pseudo-free? - day 4
Oh yea, the bandaged is removed! And all the herb stuff removed!
Ok, I don't mind the herb stuff, but I mind not being able to shower properly thanks to my leg
Haha, but I didn't really stink these few days I was in school even though I wasn't able to shower =D
That must have meant something about myself, hehe I very clean de.
But then, there is still some hint of swelling
Ok to console myself it has subsided, but then again precautions should be taken
I hope it will be the same not only for my leg
Time will heal all wounds
It will
Ok, I don't mind the herb stuff, but I mind not being able to shower properly thanks to my leg
Haha, but I didn't really stink these few days I was in school even though I wasn't able to shower =D
That must have meant something about myself, hehe I very clean de.
But then, there is still some hint of swelling
Ok to console myself it has subsided, but then again precautions should be taken
I hope it will be the same not only for my leg
Time will heal all wounds
It will
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
mood shifts - day 3b
ok, it is quite amazing how my mood can shift from one end to the other extreme
why must it be night times when all the moody issues are brought to light (pun intended)
I did not really appreciate the nature of the problem until I had a glimpse of how full blown it was
You cannot imagine how confused, hurt, I felt
I am not defending anyone, I also agree with some of them
But the polarity they have are just too great for my objective mind to take
Maybe I have overestimated people's ability to stay objective
And the mistakes I made today
And the realisation that I was still "crippled", just makes me hurt so much more
just forced me to break another promise
and skip something which I sorely miss and want to devote my time to
practicalities sometimes really suck
let me enjoy idealism for a moment thank you
why must it be night times when all the moody issues are brought to light (pun intended)
I did not really appreciate the nature of the problem until I had a glimpse of how full blown it was
You cannot imagine how confused, hurt, I felt
I am not defending anyone, I also agree with some of them
But the polarity they have are just too great for my objective mind to take
Maybe I have overestimated people's ability to stay objective
And the mistakes I made today
And the realisation that I was still "crippled", just makes me hurt so much more
just forced me to break another promise
and skip something which I sorely miss and want to devote my time to
practicalities sometimes really suck
let me enjoy idealism for a moment thank you
rejuvenated - day 3
oh yea! now I can walk with MUCH greater ease, at least without much pain =)
and I get to go back to school, can't stand the bitter medicine of staying at home, it is just too freaking boring for me
I can get to see my friends, and eat subway cookies! oooh how nice was that =)
haha, realised that I loved school after all, at least being able to see and talk to my classmates + friends, is really great! Staying at home is just too boring, even games can keep me entertained for so long
But then again, I can't go for huang cheng, which I want but I can't because I have no say when my father is around, oh well
haha, overall I am rejuvenated! today shall have a happy post. yay!
and I get to go back to school, can't stand the bitter medicine of staying at home, it is just too freaking boring for me
I can get to see my friends, and eat subway cookies! oooh how nice was that =)
haha, realised that I loved school after all, at least being able to see and talk to my classmates + friends, is really great! Staying at home is just too boring, even games can keep me entertained for so long
But then again, I can't go for huang cheng, which I want but I can't because I have no say when my father is around, oh well
haha, overall I am rejuvenated! today shall have a happy post. yay!
Monday, April 06, 2009
bored - day 2
oh well my ankle has been bandaged up like a mummy
mmm, and looking at myself now, stuck at home, like a mummy stuck as a sarcophagus
i think the month of april bears bad omens for me
2 accidents, back to back
visits to 2 different doctors, back to back
3 illnesses/injuries
somemore for someone who isn't in a sports related cca
aiyo, what has happened to me?
and now i am stuck in endless boredom, homework lay strewn on my table
mmm, and looking at myself now, stuck at home, like a mummy stuck as a sarcophagus
i think the month of april bears bad omens for me
2 accidents, back to back
visits to 2 different doctors, back to back
3 illnesses/injuries
somemore for someone who isn't in a sports related cca
aiyo, what has happened to me?
and now i am stuck in endless boredom, homework lay strewn on my table
Sunday, April 05, 2009
useless :'( - day 1
Gosh, I can be so useless!
Jump also cannot jump properly.
Now I am disabled on my right leg.
thank you kevin, you smart ass.
now you destined to be stuck to your crutches and all the restricting crap
and you might even have to miss school
you are damned freaking retarded, in the bad sense
mummy: you can ask me for any help, I am a veteran in this.
Jump also cannot jump properly.
Now I am disabled on my right leg.
thank you kevin, you smart ass.
now you destined to be stuck to your crutches and all the restricting crap
and you might even have to miss school
you are damned freaking retarded, in the bad sense
mummy: you can ask me for any help, I am a veteran in this.
oh my god.. my body has been suffering of late...
maybe its my fault, and I should stop playing basketball or staying up late
or are they merely just accidents, and hence I should continue my routine habits?
awww my poor body...
*winced from another sprained ankle, this time a different type of sprain.. I think I might have torn or stretched a new tendon*
maybe its my fault, and I should stop playing basketball or staying up late
or are they merely just accidents, and hence I should continue my routine habits?
awww my poor body...
*winced from another sprained ankle, this time a different type of sprain.. I think I might have torn or stretched a new tendon*
Friday, April 03, 2009
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
still sick
was basically nua-ing my whole day away..
for those who think that I can use all my free time doing up homework, but sorry I couldn't
Instead I had more and more sleep .. zzz
and all your food just suddenly taste damned bland
+ you have this constant dryness if your mouth.. argh
hates being sick
for those who think that I can use all my free time doing up homework, but sorry I couldn't
Instead I had more and more sleep .. zzz
and all your food just suddenly taste damned bland
+ you have this constant dryness if your mouth.. argh
hates being sick
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