I think I cannot watch movies. To be specific, I cannot watch movies with friends in public theatres if I want to maintain the public image of theirs.
I am quite an expressive person, well when I am not in my contained, self-conscious self. I am like the random group of teenagers who systematically and simultaneously start into fits of uncontrolled laughter or other emotions and become a head turner for any passerby, some feeling bemused and some feeling irritated.
I also tend to have this (I won't call this an added skill) tendency to comment on the movie as the movie progresses. I like to spot clues, red herrings or even cameos in shows and then share my new discoveries with my friends. I also tend to predict what is going to happen next (which sometimes makes worst my fear of horror shows) and will get a great deal of satisfaction when I do succeed; much to the chagrin of my friends. I also like to explain what is happening on-screen: explaining why the bullet flies this way, why the protagonist does this thing, why the antagonist decides not to kill the protagonist and stuff like that, much to the nuisance of my friends.
I can't watch horror/gore movies. Whatever left of my bravery and courage is apparently not enough to survive me through any dose of cinematic-induced fear. Thanks to my nature of constantly visualising things in my head, I tend to keep replaying some scenes in my head - and worst of all, making myself the main character instead. I still remember my younger days, when Goosebumps was still a hit among us kids. I tried reading just ONE book and that very night I seemed to be stricken by insomnia.
The rational side of me somehow always seems to be overwhelmed by the superstitious part of me as the night gets later and I get lonelier. Although I have no guilty conscious, my mind still imagines myself as being the victim. I just can't help but to feel that way sometimes.
I must say I am better now (I dare to sleep alone at my room without any doubts... maybe because I am more tired?) as compared when I was younger when I always thought that monsters hide below the bed - and I was really really scared of looking down to the bottom of the bed at night.
Anyway, next time if you happen to be catching a movie. You can leave me out. Of course it will be great to just invite me first, I will try to tone myself down (:
but leave me out of horror and gore shows.
no saw, no shutter. thanks
