Sigh

Room mate: Do you sigh when you do something wrong?
Me: No. Why?
Room mate: You seem to be sighing a lot these days, why sia?
Me: Haha. I am just sighing mainly whenever I think of the workload that is piling for me.
Room mate: You like damn emo these days sia.
Me: Not sure leh. But now it is mainly because of the workload.

I must say that I was 暗笑-ing when he asked me that. It just shows one thing: he noticed me, which I am grateful for. That seemingly innocuous question just had so much resemblance to what someone close would ask me - it just felt so surreal at that moment.
Of course there are many things that we do not do together, although I hope that he bring me along. Nonetheless, I am unable to do with him anyways because I have to clear work.
But I am really grateful to have him as a room mate.

Work

Am I doing enough?
Am I productive enough?

I think I can do more on both aspects.

I think I have lost the capacity to love.
Ok, maybe I have instead lost that urge to love?
Ok, maybe I still have that urge to love, but it is suppressed by many other thoughts preoccupying my mind?

Sick again

I think my body is protesting against all the decisions made so far. Primarily the decision to sleep at seemingly unearthly hours.

Breaking down in response to all my late nights seems to be a powerful driver to recover my sleep debt.
Why is my sleep deprivation threshold so low?!
):

Social butterfly without wings

I have to learn that you don't have to be a social butterfly to get on in uni.