the time now is 12.34am

that's cool?

edit:
omg.. noob blogger. it says 12.35.. BUT I SWEAR MY CLOCK NOW SAYS 12.34!!!

birthday to me...

weisin @ 0003hrs (supposed to be 0000hrs but due to laggy com...) : happy birthday!


:D


haha the new picture explains it all.. i shall put it up for 1 or 2 days before reverting back to my old one.



ADDED:

I think this is the first year i had so many people wishing me :D
my class sang the birthday song many times ... haha (even in the bus)

i love you all ... oh my thanks !!!
wheeeee

and of course.. that present .. _________ << speechless


(other than flunking my mathematics test)
I think today is a relatively great day, appreciated those who wished me my (1+2+3+4+5)+2 th birthday !!!

I shall list down:
08S74 !!!! (must note that jia jun wished me >10 times today LOL )
weisin
qiaowei
zhong hong
jun lin
wei pin
wei han
vanice

heh i cant remember liao ..if i missed you .. SORRY !!! >.< tell me ...

小黄城 "夜韵"

So ... i have now broke my record of spending 16 hours outside school in 1 day.
(Of course if it was a camp it would be 24 hours.. but at least i reached home)

It hit me ... but then it sank into me finally.
Numb?
Sad?
Disappointed?
Angry?
Confused?
Lost?
I am neither really that sad, nor disappointed.
I was in fact glad and happy for the 2 elected

Somehow I find that if those 2 were elected, they will be actually able to bring 灯光 to greater heights. they got the experience, they got the chemistry (as in able to work together well - at least they spent more time together than me), and lastly... they got the discipline.

now.. have this quaint feeling of : How can now I be able to help? Other than fulfilling the roles of a senior member?
I want to experience what it is like as an LD.. but I am not sure if I can do that now.. mmmm the more heads, the more disagreements there are likely to be...

however, the more heads, the more ideas there are likely to be?
I hope that next year, we seniors are able to engage slightly more in terms of designing the lights. I hope we will still be able to work with each other, and bond together, and not end up having 1 or 2 senior attendance during 黄城 itself.

I would like to thank that someone for not telling me anything... and only telling me last night after the results the reality. I myself agreed with whatever that was said of me.
( I would like to applaud your courage to tell me about what was wrong with me... at least other people are unable to do so. )
What's disturbing is.. I have this problem ever since Day 1... since Primary school
Is it in my character? My blood for being too boisterous, too "noisy", too expressive - sometimes even insensitive. Therefore putting me into something that requires immense concentration or discipline does seem to be having a bull in a china shop (literally)

I can be really really serious... but no one knows unless they have worked, or rather really worked with me before. My first impression to others in my 4 months of 黄城 is that of a loud person, unable to control myself and stuff... therefore I was not fit for it.... [ this is what I think at least ]

so right now.. the good side is that I get to concentrate more on my NRP, I have only 2 major items on the agenda at the moment - SEE2 and NRP
黄城 will still be part of my list, in fact it will always be...
please notify me when 黄城开工, 我们一起尽心尽力为黄城奋斗吧！

Again, congratulations alton and ana for getting what you deserve !!! ichiban !


(BTW SCREW THIS ! I MIGHT BE GETTING 16 DEMERIT POINTS FOR PONNING SYMPOSIUM !! OMG)

nothing to post
sorry

the dust has settled
or has it ?

affirmation
just what i affirm with

confidence
just what i confide in

assurance
just what i am assured in

can i have them?

you are blessed
and i dont think you know about it

laughter is such a beautiful thing
yet sometimes I am unable to have it

when you need
you look around
who do you see?

do you see one? do you see a group? or do you see none?

when you grief
you look down
what do you see

do you see feet? do you see hands? or do you see tissue paper?


i wonder
if there's too much emphasis placed,
if there's too much thinking involved.

i wonder

This week..
this week

oh man this week..

seriously screwed

2 times, I slept in the bus and overshot the Clementi interchange, ending up along AYE.
Furthermore today, I was even awake just ONE DAMNED stop away from the interchange. I thought I could just close my eyes a bit, and before I knew it... I am like on AYE?

Oh gosh... am I that tired? In school I thought I was full of energy, bursting with life or something.. at least I didnt look deathly or zombified...

then..
maths test
I screwed up.. in terms of carelessness
watch:

2 = 2C - 2 ..
therefore, C = 0 !!!

wheee so pro .. omg

i think i suck..


what's happening to me this week ? ...

Pictures speak a thousand words

My Past Blog Pics:

http://i73.photobucket.com/albums/i232/kardiona/blog1.png
http://i73.photobucket.com/albums/i232/kardiona/blog2.png
http://i73.photobucket.com/albums/i232/kardiona/blog3.png
http://i73.photobucket.com/albums/i232/kardiona/blog4.png

I think it was last year when i started off with making just a nice picture that encompasses my general mood, or rather what I felt.

So far there have been 4, and so they are here in chronological order
haha
you can see the progression :) .. or at least for me

wondering why I posted them here... but hmmm .. its for those who have been visiting this place :D

Life's a balance

Up and Downs

My friend just had a scary scenario where she almost freaked out, that's her downs.
Sometimes I also have my own down periods.

But there are always times when we have our happy periods, because life's a balance.

How i eventually get the inspiration and motivation to do this picture, I am not exactly too sure as well.

Beads of perspiration formed on my forehead
The heart was thumping, resonating against the silence
My eyes fixed on the shuttle cock
Adrenaline levels shot up in my body,
As I await the shuttlecock's first movement

Brilliant smashes
Excellent counters
Deceptive drop shots

one of the many few moves that I executed with ease and dexterity
not a single shot missed
not a single fumble
every shot shattered the enemy's defense and made him hapless victims of my merciless killings

--------

omg
lol

I do hope the above applies haha

today was the first round for the Inter-Class Badminton competition
I won . =D
that's all you need to know

whether the above did happen, you see for yourself.

look deeper,
search deeper,
think deeper

within you
within others

what you see might not be what you get
although we usually assume that see-ing is believing ...


but is it good to hide?
or is it bad?

i myself can't answer that question
different people have different opinions, feelings, views


overall.. at the end of the day, we have to respect the other party

Burdens

Burdens, burdens, burdens.

Is this the path that I have chose? So many commitments, resulting in me having to skip several other activities.

Saturdays: 3-5pm GP tuition

It has already made me miss some outings, this will be causing me to miss 3 more activities and outings with my friends...
in addition, I would be unable to go for an induction camp for my science research

NRP Launch: 11 April

By some god damned luck, it coincides with my dental appointment. But due to the nature of this launch, I have to sadly postpone my dental... and all the way to June. This means my quarterly dental appointments will become a twice a year thing? This isn't good, especially when my gums have somehow started bleeding for god-knows-what reason. I guess it must be the bracers are cutting into my gums? I hope not, my mouth is important... seriously.

黄城 + NRP + SEE2: Towards the end of the year

Well, the busiest times for these 3 very major and important (to me) projects and events somehow fall onto each other's timings. This means my whole of November, December and January 2009 will be filled to the brim - even water tension is unable to prevent it from spilling out. I have never felt so busy before, and I am seriously thankful for the organizer that I have with me now.
I want to do well in all, they are all important to me. Not only as a way for me to proceed (think about this word), but also as a way to relieve my passion onto.

Somehow I keep thinking, are we students working too hard? We work as if we were adults. Sometimes our portfolios are even better than adults, maybe just lacking the notion of money.
And I think this tires out our generation, the pace is so rapid, several get left behind. We speak of a meritocratic society, which is just a place solely for those who can make it, not those who can't. We speak of equal opportunities and stuff, but with these rising standards - and even As are not enough - are there really equal opportunities?

Complain as much as I want, but the reality, although harsh, is that it is a competitive environment. I am a small fish in a big ocean, even though I lose proportionately in size initially, I shall make up for it in swim speed.


...
...
...
but nonetheless, the fun factor will still be there.