So now is the short interim phase before that long phase overseas.
But I got 2 new things, ok.. 3 (including a mouse which I kinda bought on the fly right after exams, with the reason being me being unable to throw a grenade with the broken middle mouse button of my previous mouse, .. but the new mouse only costs $10 so... can pardon me hor? xD)
1. Bought a new Xiaomi Redmi phone.. which isn't red in colour because the red ones were sold out. Needed a relatively budget phone to replace my previous Ace 2 phone which had a black LCD tumour that was growing at the bottom left. Initially it consisted of a short line of dead pixels, but the disease spread and now the spot is practically as big as my thumb.
2. Finally was able to get an internship. And yep, can't say much about what I am doing because... classified (lol, joking), but rather I don't really know what I am doing yet. All I know I would be given a project to do, but what it will be about (and what I have to do) is still unknown.
So yea, life changes so quickly. Everyone is now either overseas, working, or not working. (lol like duh). And I am now thrown into the 8am - 5pm work cycle, and being a worker again.
Now to see if I would be willing to work in such an environment.
Tomorrow marks my first day at work as a university undergraduate in an internship.
Excited to see what I can pick up, and also to experience how mundane work can be.
Grateful for the support and help that I have been provided with. Help is given to those who ask.
I have been blessed with this opportunity, better make full, good use of it. However, that being said, if you ask me now, I have no idea what my internship would be. Neither do I know my remuneration, my job scope yada yada. All I know is to turn up at that place, at that time.... and the rest will be history for the next 3 months.
So my chapter at hall 11 is likely to be closed, amid speculations about us shifting into new halls when we return. Even if I do get back to hall 11, the population there of people whom I would be familiar with would probably dwindle to a handful.
It is so interesting and intriguing how we take so long to build a relationship (i.e. with the hall), but a simple, single effort (i.e. simply depositing the key into the letter box) can end it so ever swiftly. Well, to be more specific, the physical relationship and physical closeness.
I would also not meet some of my friends in a year?
Learnt quite a bit in school.
I think after 2 years, I must admit that the "cliques phenomenon" is indisputably inevitable. And it is for the better good as well. Although it might create some drift between members of different clans, it also provides the members some form of support to turn to. Initially I was quite apprehensive about this "clique" thing, and steadfastly proclaim myself as "clique-less"; but then I realised I am into this "clique" thing as well.
But there's nothing to be ashamed of, it is alright to have a clique. But be more aware about others who are so-called-not-in-your-clique. It doesn't mean they are not in your "clique" you treat them as second-class friends. People in your clique might be the first whom you turn to, but these other friends living on the fringes are equally important as well - because you always need a plan B in case your clique collapses.
I have made more friends. And I intend to keep most of them. This time, I have more friends to stay in touch, but still the same 24 hours a day. Looks like I am in need of some time management.
Time to get a new phone. There are indeed so much wisdom in my friends, I cannot fathom how they know such stuff. Looking for the small rice, and had some "fun" scrambling around everywhere getting price quotes.
And my tablet seems to be screwing up. Some China stuff seem to be working, and others seem to be relishing in bad reputation.
And I probably need to do another thought rumination process. Have to settle my priorities, and what to focus on.
What a good night sleep. Actually, I woke up much earlier, but I decided to give my body the break it so greatly needs desires. It's when you let your body take over the mind, and utilise all sorts of cognitive dissonance to pacify your mind that you have the right to chill.
But do I have the right to chill? I still have another exam, and many more assignments to complete.
Work will never be complete, but this lack of "drive".. should I be unnerved by it?
Nonetheless, yesterday was a good day of enjoyment after a horrendous paper. I do hope I'll be able to attain my desired grade. I don't think it's really a far cry, although one can never be too sure - based on my 2 CAs in this semester.
It is quite refreshing to be (for lack of a better word) "partying" with a different group of friends. It's like there was some random sorting in class and we got grouped together; ok, maybe not so random since all of us were in the same course.
Definitely I wasn't that close to most of them there, looking at who I spend time with. But there are little/random moments in class (and outside) where I did interact with them. But definitely not to party together.
It was great fun, and you get to learn a bit more about the nuances and eccentricities of each other. It is also probably a "confirmation" or refresher on who they really are.
One thing we are usually worried about is the worry of sending "negative signals" when we only invite a certain person, when you know that person is part of a clique. I think we ought to learn how to prepare ourselves against that. I believe we are mature enough to not to be too fussy when someone only invites your friend but not you? Maybe it's a sign that he/she is not that close to you enough, and if you wish to be closer... then make the move!
This semester is coming to a close soon. And the thought of taking that plane in August is .... indescribable. Trepidation, anxiety, anticipation, excitement.. it's really an amalgamation of feelings into one.
And yes, I have to find a story about myself. End of the day, in the shower, who am I? What do I actually want? I find myself losing some interest in the many things I do, but some still do stand out... I have to explore them further?
