But do I have the right to chill? I still have another exam, and many more assignments to complete.
Work will never be complete, but this lack of "drive".. should I be unnerved by it?
Nonetheless, yesterday was a good day of enjoyment after a horrendous paper. I do hope I'll be able to attain my desired grade. I don't think it's really a far cry, although one can never be too sure - based on my 2 CAs in this semester.
It is quite refreshing to be (for lack of a better word) "partying" with a different group of friends. It's like there was some random sorting in class and we got grouped together; ok, maybe not so random since all of us were in the same course.
Definitely I wasn't that close to most of them there, looking at who I spend time with. But there are little/random moments in class (and outside) where I did interact with them. But definitely not to party together.
It was great fun, and you get to learn a bit more about the nuances and eccentricities of each other. It is also probably a "confirmation" or refresher on who they really are.
One thing we are usually worried about is the worry of sending "negative signals" when we only invite a certain person, when you know that person is part of a clique. I think we ought to learn how to prepare ourselves against that. I believe we are mature enough to not to be too fussy when someone only invites your friend but not you? Maybe it's a sign that he/she is not that close to you enough, and if you wish to be closer... then make the move!
This semester is coming to a close soon. And the thought of taking that plane in August is .... indescribable. Trepidation, anxiety, anticipation, excitement.. it's really an amalgamation of feelings into one.
And yes, I have to find a story about myself. End of the day, in the shower, who am I? What do I actually want? I find myself losing some interest in the many things I do, but some still do stand out... I have to explore them further?
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