Meritocracy will never be blind

I may be a happy, optimistic person, but this does not mean I am infinitely so.
There are simply so many reasons that I can use to justify and resolve the cognitive dissonance swirling in my head, and these reasons do run out. And when they do, that's when the problem sets in. Worst still, the problem will simply escalate, and when not kept in check by other reasons, that's when you get a breakdown.

This just shows one thing. Wherever you are, whatever you do, you must not only do your best, you MUST be the best, or at least outstanding with unique abilities. If not, unless you are happy staying as a another number, you will never feel satisfied. People will not purposely choose you, and odds will not be in your favour. 

There are only and very few things in life where meritocracy is blind.