Flurry of activities, and thinking

So here I am, way past my usual sleeping hours and after a flurry of activities for the day.
But today is a relatively special, eventful day, and I do not wish to let my inspiration seep out of my already crowded (and crowding more) brain.

That immense joy for performing is something which I can't reiterate. Furthermore, when people make the effort to come all the way down just to watch you, or even people who are unable to make it but still lend their support (such as asking "what's time your dance... oh sorry I have a meeting can't come"), it gives me this surge in motivation and aspiration. Such words underline the silent affirmation that someone is actually concerned about my life and is lending me his/her support, something for which I am truly grateful.  Even better, someone kept his "promise" and traveled a great deal of distance just to watch me (I have to be egoistic here too haha), I just couldn't (maybe I did it well) hide my joy upon seeing his trade marked face. Of course I am not the only one he is looking at, but at least the support is still there - I am still not the star of the show haha.
But apart from that, it just demonstrates the deep bond we have for each other. I am guilty of such things too, not turning up for events my friends are performing in - because of whatever legit reason I might bring. I'm not saying we must all drop whatever responsibilities we have and just participate (or watch) whatever things our friends are doing, but it is more of the knowledge and updating of yourself with the said persons' lives.

Some people really amaze me. They may have a quiet exterior but when you observe him, he can be really amazing and helpful. Apparently I thought someone was probably inactive in hall (well I don't see him around), but my assumptions were broken when I realised I kept seeing him around in hall events. Furthermore, he even went up to me to offer his help in one of my pleas for help! Really, assumptions are assumptions until you know the person - that's my takeaway.

I was talking with a close friend of mine about what to do in the holidays, and I was honestly quite perturbed at the apparent lack of concrete plans she has. I am probably someone (and getting to terms with) who plans in advance, and likes to have structure in things I do (I do accept forms of spontaneity but on a macro perspective I am still a structural person).
It is better to plan for something than not even planning. As in there's really nothing wrong to plan "I am not going to do anything but watch videos/play games/sleep my holidays away", at least you have a plan. But when you do not have a plan, you end up letting your life be handled by some random invisible hand. It is akin to giving up your life and demonstrate your lack of control over your life. You are you, and you should control your life, even if it might lead to disapproval by others - so be it. And "plan" means some specifics, not some generic statement like "I am going to find a job", but "I am going to find a job in xxx industry". Instead of "I am going to read a book", make it "I am going to read yyy book / I am going to read about zzz". I think these are small things that encapsulate your treatment towards your own life. Yes some things may be out of your control: you might be NS/mired in familial problems/lack of financial funds (ok it's just a complicated word for "money"), but you can work around them.
And even if you do not achieve all of what planned, at least you have planned.  When you plan, at least when you wake up you will know what to do, rather than simply just think of what to do. Remember, Planning to do nothing is better than not planning at all!

Ok time to sleep. Better get some sleep now.
I hope that this shall be the last few times I have to stay up so late, now that dance has ended, not that dance has normally caused me to stay so late anyways.

Sleep.