My limit

I suffer from this. But it is also from this that I try to attain perfection (or at least my own standard) in whatever I do.

I have been ingrained that there's always a "right way" to do something, such that I shy away from trying out other methods.

This cripples me, especially in my foray into music.
I have met people who told me to follow tabs, I find such form of learning guided and hence more comforting to me.

Then I start to hear the term "play by ear". I know the phrase very well, I understand the purpose, I understand the flexibility. But I am unable to execute it, at least in my quest to learn an instrument. It stresses me when I have nothing to follow, with the worry that my own concoction would not be good enough for other ears to hear. 

It's like, I both want my own style, but I still need a guide. But, I still have to try. Pain pain pain.