Of Leading and Leadership

I realise I am in love with Verdana. I hope it is a girl's name, but no, it is simply a name of a font-type. Of course, I do not love Verdana so much that I have to be with her (use her) in every assignment that I do, but when I feel happy and want to share my work with others, I rely on Verdana. I do not feel angst or a feeling of hatred when someone else communicate with Verdana (hope you understand the layers involved) too, neither do I feel too lonesome if I do not see Verdana for a long time.
You can clearly see the juxtaposition involved - the rest is for your analysis.

But this is not the purpose of this post. But this can be another observation of myself: I tend to link everything and "connect the dots", no matter how abstract it can be.

We have learnt, or rather reinforced our understanding of, "leading". In fact, FOM (Fundamentals of Management) helped to concretise the understanding of myself. It assigns qualitative values to my personality, provides adjectives and descriptions to otherwise my indescribable character.
Shall cut this short, I tend to ramble ):

3 projects later, I realised I have always been taking the "leading" role. No I am not proclaiming my ability in leading - in fact I think my leading capabilities are narrowly bounded to certain situations, and neither am I analysing why I tend to get the leading role - and it is not because "I am good".

What I will be discussing is the difficulties I face when placed in a leadership position. I have concluded that I take on a "democratic, participative" leadership - but to a bad extent. I worry I provide too much work for my members. I worry equity theory is played against me. I worry I give imbalanced amount of work to each member. I worry of what my group members will think of me. I worry I will appear as inefficient and ineffective.
I worry that the overall job will not be of what I want - this is another problem which should be discussed another time. To quote someone: I can be domineering at times. But I really worry alot. Worry worry worry.

As an act divergent from my typical self, I shall not put my own analysis to this.

I do love some feedback on this. I am open to any criticism, in fact I want to know your perspective. I want to know if you too feel this way about me.
Of course, I understand that some of us only met just recently. Some of us have yet to meet for long time. And for those that I met, we might not have sufficient interaction for you to gain an understanding of me.

And lastly, I admit, I am a humblebragger. Everyone is. But I shall admit I am. Even stating this sentence is humble bragging.