I have been randoming throughout the day...
however.. randoming to myself only..

thoughts.
ideas.

whatever you call it

不知道我如何这么样
天天又想同样的回事
却不能又不会处理它
可能我太着急了，
可能我太着慌了，
可能我太糊涂了，
什么也不懂不会
只好默默地过生活。。。

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and I just felt very surprised and ... cold... after hearing something

I am not sure why.
I am not sure how.

Friends seem to come and go, arrive and leave.
Some go quietly, others with a bang.
Some go off gradually, others in an instant.

Some come slowly, others click on the spot.
Some come heartily, others through unkempt silence.

but.. looking around...
how many do I really have in fact?

how many can I confide in?
how many can I share my worries, my happiness?

not sure.
not really sure.

am I losing more than I am gaining?

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then again, this thought seem to be ringing in my head.. usually at around this time..
the time when I am pondering, thinking, recalculating, recounting... about me, myself and I

" Destiny has its own way of recorrecting things... "

Let me see if it works, because I need one severely now.

well...
just created the above image in 10 minutes lol lol ..

random pix ? ..
hmm ..

does it tell feelings in my heart? or not?

it is up for anyone to tell...

whoa... love the uber impromptu assembly performance today by 4 very pro gentlemen in our class!

Love you Yew Wei for your outstanding dexterity with the guitar! =) .. haha... even though I have heard it before.. it is still as good to listen!! LOVELY man....

Music seriously change the perception of a person...
Seeing Gerald and Zong Ning playing their musical instruments... (with all passion and concentration displayed in their faces).. listening to the melodious music
omg... somehow i just.. kinda... admire them =) ..


haha somehow am proud of my class today .. heh

They say being happy is good for your health.

I am elated!

This is getting crap, sick and I am bloody tired of this..

Waking up:
Aching limbs,
Pissed,
Lethagic
Eyes itch
Clothes stinking from sweating during sleeping

In School:
Running away from teachers for certain things
Poor grades
Feeling inferior thanks to others

At Home:
Have to answer rhetorical questions over and over again.
Then... think and feel about .. other stuff..
Feel like asking others, but cant.

Sleep:
I just wish .. everyday could be just like this
Somehow I forget all my worries when I am about to sleep..


What's wrong?

Gone. Gone gone.

I thought it must have disappeared for a few years... but it must have been a facade..
oh well ...
the signals are now clear. oh well...

can you all please just ... dun be so nosey and pokey?
its irritating..

i am trying to change, yet you are holding me with a leash.
i changed for good things, you still bug me with history.

what the hell..

and the thing is you are living in the same house as me

its so freaking hot!... zzzzzzz