flunked

Yes, my grades really fumbled. Ah crap damnit.

Anyway when I received chem today I was like furious. Wanted to rant, rant and rant. But I think after a day, the mood has evidently lightened up. The words later are much less angrier, and more consoling. But anyway, to those who don't want to read a rant, please close the window now. Especially those who might be affected. Remember, this is what I think, in my own perspective.

what the shit, as in seriously what the shit.

all my grades are slipping,

I have certainly made NO visible improvement at all la for the prelims

Kevin Seng what have you done all these while,

Slacking, goofing around before prelims?

What's the problem with you man.

All your traditional strongholds in Chemistry and Mathematics - they have crumbled and cracked!

No, dont bother with moderation, just look at your raw results, is this what you should be getting?

Your parents are dead worried, and place so much faith in you for your grads,

Not only them your teachers, and even yourself

and screwing up is how you repay them? for the freedom they have offered you unconditionally?

this is seriously ridiculous - i have darn no discipline at all. yes, playing games whenever you can? how about not being focused on your work.

actually I don't think that's the main problem

I think my head is glued to the freaking ceiling

Too stuck up there, maybe.. complacent, overconfident.. what else

Shit, kevin you have to like buck up.

You know your aim, you have your aim, now you must do things towards that aim

It is not difficult, but it is certainly no piece of cake.

Don't base yourself against others, base yourself against yourself... if you want an A, get an A. Ignore B, a B won't be called for.
I know some of you might say "Hey I also feel this way"
But if you have improved, good for you, like jumped from E to C or B etc. that's what I want
Its either maintain, or improve.. not deprove which is just what I did!
Its not about "f**k, missed that mark for some freaking careless"
Its "Why the hell did you deprove in the first place - careless is NOT a reason"