I dont watch shows often... but

一枝梅 is just so <333333

sleep
   /slip/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [sleep] Show IPA Pronunciation
verb, slept, sleep⋅ing, noun
–verb (used without object)
1. to take the rest afforded by a suspension of voluntary bodily functions and the natural suspension, complete or partial, of consciousness; cease being awake.
2. Botany. to assume, esp. at night, a state similar to the sleep of animals, marked by closing of petals, leaves, etc.
3. to be dormant, quiescent, or inactive, as faculties.
4. to be careless or unalert; allow one's alertness, vigilance, or attentiveness to lie dormant: While England slept, Germany prepared for war.
5. to lie in death: They are sleeping in their tombs.
–verb (used with object)
6. to take rest in (a specified kind of sleep): He slept the sleep of the innocent.
7. to accommodate for sleeping; have sleeping accommodations for: This trailer sleeps three people.
8. to spend or pass in sleep (usually fol. by away or out): to sleep the day away.
9. to recover from the effects of (a headache, hangover, etc.) by sleeping (usually fol. by off or away).



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there are more definitions..

Whatever! I shall go sleep! Damnit, stupid weather!!!

Was listening to Tattoo...
"I learn every time I bleed"

Why the hell is all the dads on leave on the last few weeks of the year? Why can't they just claim all of them during the year, must wait till the last few weeks?!


DAMNIT F**K

Shit.. i keep breaking my promises

what the hell

sorry... but I am really really sorry that I keep breaking all my promises and the trust you put in me... and in the meantime causing you all this pain.

I know that the wait cannot be taken for granted, but... I am doing my best but my environment won't! DAMNIT

Oreo Ice Blended!

1. Put in ice
2. Put in some milk
3. Put in Oreo
4. BLEND THEM

:D
Oreo ice blended! Gosh, my homemade oreo is damned thick =P, due to apparent lack of cost-cutting measures hehe!

tip: reduce on ice and add in more cold fresh milk to make your ice blended thicker

gosh i AM waking up later and later...
and my limbs are getting more and more tired ...

Crying

Someone please teach me how to cry.
I just can't seem to cry. Maybe it is a boy's thing or something. But I have seen other boys doing it too! So what's wrong with me? Damnit.

Why can't I just "cry it out and then get over with it" or something? Why must that incessant thing be stuck in my head?

Wait, I deserved it anyway, so who am I to ask for help.

Have I lost?

Have I lost it?
All these while there was negligence on my part, bad assumptions were made, and hence a rift was created.

Sometimes I wonder, am I worth it? I know I should'nt be thinking about this, but it just seems to be a nagging part of me.

me²

1.Who is the person who tagged you?
fine... josh and weisin tagged me.. guess I got to do it then >.<
I shall answer to both at the same time! :D

2.The relationship between you and her/him?
"Complicated" seems like the latest word to use. Well, for 2 of them... they are my girl friends :D

3.Your 5 impressions of her/him?
Weisin: shorter than me, longer hair than me, gets high faster than me, likes to pout & lively!
Josh: taller than me, longer hair than me, i remember her smile vividly lol... thinking sort and moody sometimes (cheer up!)

4.If she/he becomes your enemy, you will?
Both: Wahaha, I'll wage a war! GoGo!

5.What will you say to the person whom you like very much?
No words. Actions first! :D

6.The characteristic(s) you love about yourself is… ?
I shall eat humble pie! :)

7.The characteristic(s) you hate about yourself is… ?
MY HAIR IS CURLY! ok la, it is getting better nowadays.. maybe it is due to me getting numb by it.
I rush into things? And I also think too much, as in look too deep into things.

8.For the person whom you hate the most, you say…?
I don't see a reason why I will hate anyone. Unless you kill my loved ones..

9.What do people feel about you?
Not sure lehz, please tell me (honestly please tell me)

10.Who do you have a crush on?
The paper in my hand currently. ... *enters dustbin! :D*

11.The most ideal person you want to be is… ?
an improved myself :D (I like weisin’s answer (and josh's too) :D)
ok la.. maybe some improvement to my stature, as well as my EQ... not sure if it is there..

12.Pass on this quiz to 5 people : (without looking at the questions below!)
1. Chin Ying
2. Vanice
3. Qiao wei
4. Felix (lol)
5. CELIA!

13.If no.2 & no.3 were together, what will happen?
(vanice + qiao wei) girl + girl = ughz

14.Who does no.5 like?
(CELIA) _____________

15.What colour does no.1 like?
(Chin ying) Oh no, I don’t know too! :( Hmm. Maybe black?

16.Say something about no.3.
(Qiao wei) She's nice? :)

17.Who is no.2?
(Vanice) A girl too! Wahahaha, a lover of this guy called Daiki! hehe

18.Talk about no.5.
(CELIA) My mei! Contemplative, nice to be with and talk to :) We should meet up again!

19.Who is no.1?
(chin ying) Chairman of my old cca! wahahaha! currently trapped in icy Beijing :(

20.Who is the sexiest person amongst them?
Oh no.. i am not answering this! That's for me to know hehe

21.What colour does no.4 like?
(felix) :O colour questions again? Gah.. black because his blog is black? :P

22.Is no.4 single?
(felix) mmmmmmm.... can't tell hehehehe

23.What is your relationship with no.1?
(chin ying) dont think too much into it :)

24. Are no.1 & no.3 best friends?
(chin ying + qiao wei) Don’t think so.

25.What is no.5’s surname?
(celia) WONG!!

26.What is no.1’s nickname?
(chin ying) :O frostfang? :P

27.What things do you wish to say to no.3?
(qiao wei) gah.. lol .. hi?

28.What will you do to help no.5?
(celia) help in? mm providing myself whenever company is needed?

29.Who does no.1 admire?
(chin ying) ME!

30.Where does no.1 live?
(chin ying) OH SHIT I 4got! I know its near school?!

31.Does the 5 of them know who you like?
*innocent smile*

32.What do you wish to say when you see no.2?
(vanice) Hi! HAHA. It is always polite to start with a "hi" .... :D

Oh my... I think I got into the habit of watching shows!

ah, I love 赤子之心 as well as 一枝梅, these Korean shows have nice and down to earth plots la! (but still have that sense of reel life)

Dumbbells

woots, my father bought a pair of 4kg dumbbells !!


mmm shall go train on it! wheee (what a lazy ass I am)
gosh, I need to be able to carry girls and show off meh abs :D
hehe

ok la 4kg is a start for me! XD

just feeling a bit down mmmm

am I really up to it?

Wahaha Girls watch this!

ohh my god, my past 20 minutes were fun and laughter! wahahaha

WIN!

"oscar-worthy acting skills" anyone?

Eggs & Shirt

Lol. Nothing to do.. or rather don't want to do anything.. so I found them! Haha, they provide step-by-step guides !! :O

X'mas is coming

I need to buy cards to send out =D

at a loss

Haven't been blogging, because I don't feel like.

because I do not know what to do

someone wanted me to blog
so here is it!

a blogpost!

I love my handpicked song list.
Just the perfect remedy to almost any emotional situation.

They enable me to escape this hysterical world :)
drown myself in the melodious music, and singing to myself - shall only let myself listen to my screwed up voice =X

Crazy

This is getting crazy. It seems as if my parents look through my handphone or something.

And I really wonder how small their social circle is (was). All I have to do is to chat with anyone from the opposite sex now and then and they suspect that I have a relationship brewing.
eh wait, no. All I have to do is LOOK like chatting online (virtually anything with lines and lots of pictures) and they think I am foolishly trapped in teenage "crushes".

And somehow they just think that as long as I am touching my handphone, I am smsing some girl out there just for the purpose of fun.
Oh my gosh.


What can I do?

How I wish I can play catch-up with people.
How I wish I can just do things without getting unwanted responses from other people.

How I wish I can just meet some people, MSN is getting a bit too dry.

Sometimes it can be really hard to play the good boy.

Maybe because I have already firm standings on what I deem is right... but then again, won't this erode the meaning of "advice"?

oh god
my parents need to know when to stop reminding me about my work, it is not as if I don't know it is coming! >.<

damn

Why are cousins so cute?!!

I love making blunders.
They are so great.

They make you waste time, and waste resources - and hence let you realise the importance of time and resources.
They allow your unhappy feelings to surface, which otherwise might have been restrained inside you.

Really.

oh well, enjoy my sarcasm...
maybe its just another tiring day for me...

Swords and Magic

Sometimes I just wish there will be this mad and evil monster who will snatch away someone that I like, and then I will be having this uber enchanted sword and go through all ends and means to kill that monster, like exchanging 999999 blows and having a grueling 999 hours of fighting.
Then I finally can free the girl that I like and we are in love forever.








Stupid movies, stop showing things that only make us dream.
Gah.
But anyways, isn't it nice to think about it sometimes?

Forgot to blog yesterday!
whee
downloaded movies and more movies! especially animated ones.
haha can't think of anything else that will be well-received by people of all ages (literally)

yesterday went to Curry Wok for de first time!
just realised its not bad, though its quite expensive


and right now, my mathematics solving rate is down to a mere 1 question/hour, even primary school kids solve 100 mathematics question in 2 hours la!

die
got to buck up and not get distracted

lunch anyone? :)

money!

wheee i earned money by cleaning the house! >.<

ok la, it is not alot, but well, doing something and getting a reward is really.. rewarding? hehe

shan't disclose how much I earn, it is really little.. just a little bit more than my total allowance for 1 week haha.
in the first place doing the housework shouldn't be charged right?

god. i like swiss chocolates!

Golden Touch

Sian, I need the golden touch. Really. The golden touch.
My experiments have failed me like... rar

ok la, I think its typical of most research, but the thing is time is not on my side.
3 more weeks and I have to seriously start writing the paper. Minus 1 week for holiday (with my family), and another week to complete a new set of experiment, I am left with 1 buffer week
and 1 week is not alot to begin with

grah

Why do I have the knack of visualizing people whom I MSN with wearing pyjamas or nightwear?
...
quite funny, especially when you add in the mitten hat

sian
people flying off
people already flew off
people just stay off

and i just missed an apparently fun time of See2

god
i am quite bored now

this morning, I almost thought that pillows were people LOL

Life

really need a life of my own
realised i am essentially dead when i ain't typing or ain't talking

gah

dependence is something you don't want to fall into

Rolex Advertisement

the television was just broadcasting the rolex advertisement which was centred around golf.

wahaha, just love the music =D

omgz

See²

Gosh, was too tired to blog at all last night.
Haha, now going off to school for clean up >.<

wheee!

see² is finally over, and I daresay this was a really huge success.

Average Participant rate: > 80%

yea! never seen before attendance for all 3 days.
Of course, this year's see² had games on EPIC levels, seriously! Planning for 70+ peoeple is no joke, especially for the past 2 years when the number participants hover at 40,50. Of course, there were alot of hiccups, and we almost lost control of the situation - possibly bringing this year as the last year of See².

But it also brought a new light, and a all-the-while pertinent issue that was never addressed for these 3 years.

Anyways, thank you everyone for making this a success!

See² tomorrow!
wheeee

*realises there are still unfinished stuff*

....

December

December in 1 week time.
Next week will be a hectic week, really hectic.
Just hope I can pull off a good job, don't want to waste all my time away. Really.

then I shall work on NRP. Gah! so busy, unable to even have time for others :(

man i really wish to see people!

yes! The RAM got in at last!

Kudos to my father for helping me take the screw out!
wheeeee

1GB of ram here I come!
Woohooo super smooth la!

ok, yu chuan got me some laptop RAM

but the key thing now is, the RAM cover's screw bits are all screwed. ._.
screwed so damned freaking tight, now the screw's hole is like smooth ..

what the hell

Got this from den's blog

so anything whose zodiac matches, TELL ME :D

Lets101 Quizzes - Quizzes for Fun

I love my hair now
omg they just look so kewl!

:D

*finds camera*
damned
:(

Conversations

I really like it when people initiate.
Of course I do sometimes, but the difference between the response or the starter is there.

of course, I am not asking for anything :)

Holiday Dilemmas

"So when can you take leave"
"I said can't"
"You sure or not, check with your boss la"
"I said can't"
"This is a family thing leh. It is not like I am asking you to take leave everyday!"
"I said can't means can't!"
"Ok whatever, you don't want to bother, then I shan't bother"
"You think I am the boss of my company is it?"
"Don't care, you just can't be bothered. Always like that"

-heated silence-

sometimes I really wonder, when is the line drawn? It is not his fault that he can't take leave, in this recession time, companies might not want employees to take paid leave as it will only just make it worst. However, this is also the only rare times my family can really be together, especially when the other parent is a teacher, and teacher's can't randomly take leave can they?

but then, I feel that both are in the wrong, but looking from the heated argument and the silent cold war occuring in that room outside mine now , I think I should remain at my computer.

In the meantime, at least my holiday schedule isn't affected. Man I am evil.


( By the way, I took freaking 30 minutes just to post this bloody post, when I can just type those out in 5 minutes. My computer is really beyond hope. I don't know what the fuck it is processing ALL DAY ALL NIGHT. That stupid hard disk light keeps blin.., ok not even blinking, it just stays there ! WTH LA! )

Why am I wasting my time helping the CCA that provided me with one of my first true social circle?

Why must everything I do be wrong? Why must everything I like to do is wrong? Why must it that I follow you ALL the time? Why is it that my life is not led by me, but by you?

Sorry, I know you have good interests in heart for me, but sometimes it has gone too far, and I think it has instead made it the other way round.

i am sleepy.

zzzzz

zzzz

zzz

zz

z

.

if I cant even express myself properly.. how am i supposed to do well in an interview? how about other things in life? how about showing your love to your loved ones? how about just communication?

wth

Drive

Just had another chat with my father
Ok it could be said as a bit hot-headed, but it fared much better than previous times

This time he was assertive, yet convincing and not sounding like I am a robot. If he talks to me like this in the future I don't mind stepping back and listening to him.

Anyways, speaking of which, it seems that I have this lack of "drive", this burning "passion" inside me. I am easily able to just go for this camp, go play basketball with my friends, without the slightest considerations of whatever I am doing now, etc. research. Even if I did consider, it was a quick and pragmatic approach that somehow does not match for the seriousness of whatever I am aiming to do this holiday.

Maybe my own view of "severity" is much more relaxed as compared to my father. But true enough, I think I do get his point. I think I really need to put in more effort, more attention, more sweat and blood into what I want to do in this holiday.


And, I just affirmed the power of connections.

walk
and walk
and walk and walk and walk

and walk
and walk
and walk and walk and walk

i think that rhymes =P
and makes a good rap

A Moment of Truth

Just had a nice heart-to-heart chat with my mum.
Yes, heart-to-heart chat, no scolding, no reprimanding, yet the message is loud and clear.

I have alot of responsibilities now. In my family, in my work, in my life.

wth

Holidays are such a bore
Homework is such a chore
Stoning is such a sore
Never been so hard core

wa sheit

Sometimes I wish, there is no one to keep harping me on my homework and things, and incessantly reminding me of that imminent threat in that horizon of mine.

Wasting of Time

Define wasting of time.

Normally one is wasting time when you realise that whatever you have been doing is inherently of no value to yourself. If you help others, but do not feel gratitude or some form of satisfaction from it, it is also wasting your time. Why use your own time when you gain nothing out of it?

So essentially, I am not wasting my time now, since I am deriving excitement from the games I play, enjoyment from going out with my friends, and happiness spending time together. But if you look from the practical approach, I should be spending my time studying and researching now, not doing all these.

So what is wasting time? I think I just confused you, and even myself. I just took a big circle, a big round the bush.

And how about traveling for 1 hour, just to do nothing literally constructive? I really do not know.

Laptop Back!

Yay, laptop is back omg

Anyone tell me the problem of using MSN Messenger, or plainly "chatting with my friends"?

I mean honestly, does it hurt anyone? And it isnt as if I am gaming now, or it is affecting my packing of my table?

Tell my dad that.

And tell that at least 10 times.

Balance

First time it really dawned on me the importance of

Balancing between work and family.

Lol, got this from a friend who just read on facebook

In a biology class at university, the lecturer wass discussing sperm, and commented upon the amount of fructose contained within it, at which point a young lady put her hand up and asked
"If sperm contains so much fructose, why doesn't it taste sweet?"
As you can imagine at this point the whole lecture theatre broke into laughter, forcing the girl to go bright red, gather her things and try to run out of the theatre.As she reached the door, the lecturer asked her to stop, and said
"Before you go, if I can quickly answer your question. The reason sperm probably doesn't taste sweet is because the taste buds for sweetness are on the tip of the tongue, not the back."

Simplicity

The greatest thing in life, the ultimate key to happiness


is just simplicity.


Coca cola is mainly a carbonated sugared drink and yet the founder is one of the richest man in the world.
Macdonalds is mainly bread and meat + some vegetables and yet it is one of the largest food & beverage chain in the world


Buddhism and Christianity revolves around being simple and remaining at one's core values - Buddha wore nothing but a satin robe, Christ wore nothing but white cloth


Complexities, are merely made up of several "simplicities" interwined together


When you study, what you are study are complex matter, that is basically "simple" stuff explained in a complex manner.
In this world, whatever you have studied, at least 1 million people have studied the same thing. But what really matters, is whether you can digest such "complex" information into something even a layman can understand. This is what the world needs.
Imagine, if you know something complex, you can only talk to the 1 million people who have studied, but the other 1 million people do not know - because they don't study. But if you are able to make that complex thing simple, you can now talk to 2 million people, and still be speaking about the same complex thing!


Microsoft succeeded because it made computing so user-friendly and fool-proof, almost anyone can use it, and hence surpassed Macintosh.


When things are simple, they are focused - as there is no room for gibberish to take place. Do you realise that most famous sayings consists of only a few words? Who remembers famous works that are composition style? The more simple the saying, and the deeper the meaning, the more "famous" it gets.






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nice? Will you ever expect that I learnt all this in a 20 min light-hearted conversation with a taxi-driver? And no boombastic words were used. Plain simple english even a Primary school grader can understand. But what's the morale of the story?

Simple = Good
Really, one of the most inspirational talk I ever had that was so captivating.

guilt

I tell you being riddled with guilt is no fun thing.

really

screw ups

sian my mind is just flooded of the screws up that I have made over this short time span
and remember, these are screw ups IN MY PERSPECTIVE

1. Biology - C
2. Only gave 2 "credential" in H3 application
3. PW WR grammer flops
4. Laptop battery - overcharge it, did not let it discharge
5. Didn't prepare qusetions for OP Q&A
6. Broke promises now and then

and now this

What a leader I am

What a great leader am I.
Doing things without consulting the rest first, and yet when time was given FORGOT to ask for help
Furthermore my English language ability is also severely limited.

Great
Now I screwed up my team's Work Report, I am really really sorry. But apologising is not enough, oh man.

Next time I should just, not be a leader anymore. Shit

"You are not serious in your work"

maybe I am.. maybe I am not?
someone.. please tell me

and I don't want patronising answers. thanks

MY COMPUTER!!!

What have I done to deserve such thing?

Computer's adaptor screwed already. So now I can't expect my last-for-30-minutes battery to work until PW?

mmm

Is it my hormones? Or am I really just pissed. GAH

bored

yay, free holiday

but think again, sometimes I just wish we get like 3 hours of school each day. Maybe do nothing but stone in classroom doing "PW", I don't mind really. Staying at home is such a bore, and when my computer is screwing up, playing almost any worthwhile games can be quite a chore to my patience.

I want to go to school so I can meet my friends and play com or talk cock or just be together. Ya, I do complain waking up at 6am and dragging my tired soul to school, only to stay there for just 2,3 hours then making my way home. But seriously, school is where your friends are. Of course you can go out, however, the wallet can get threatened, and I am not the sort who spends.

Project Work is actually indeed fun, especially when you have slogged your hearts out over the past few months with the same people. I can be said as being very lucky - my group has 4 dedicated members. Ok we might slack halfway, but at least they attempt and they do their work. But then, during PW, I get to interact with them and talk with them. It is so much better than plain mugging by oneself!

Games can only make you happy for a while. Gah. I wish I can go to school now. I wish I can see some people now, or just someone.

omg my laptop is pissing me

it seems to be decomposing

after PW OP
I am going to claim back my warranty for
1. Adaptor wear and tear (connection is super loose and there are bare wires)
2. My battery only lasts for 30 minutes, and I wasn't even using it for anything (meaning no open programs)
3. My CD Drive is undetected AGAIN, god damned third time
4. My processor is degrading, I took 10 minutes to type this post cuz 5 minutes was due to pure lag

"with your current grades, you will never get a scholarship"

shit i am really quite scared and worried. seeing how many people could do the impossible (4 As) in Hwachong alone, it is quite scary.
what more about RJC?
how about ACJC?

gosh
I really need to study hard
like hard

but at the same time not neglecting the people I love, my friends...

sorry people, I aim high, so please don't go "get 2 As is already good enough la"
and I am just being direct

congratulations to others
but a real disappointment to me

shan't say anything else
just know that I did MUCH worst than I ever thought I could

a frayed kite got trapped amongst the reaching branches of the tree
a boy stood below, eying that much "coveted" prize up there
he attempts to bring it down

passerbys watched, and wondered how this boy's aiming could be so retarded
he was instead throw twigs and sticks that he could pick up towards a catch in the tree, which was at least 2 metres away from that colourful distinctive object
later, he called in additional reinforcements as the form of his parents

he attempted to climb up the tree by stepping on his father's shoulders
his father attempted to throw more sticks and twigs, with much greater accuracy but still not enough

all to no avail

upon further investigation, the boy was missing one slipper


and the boy is me

went to shower just now
and realised to my untold HORROR

my SKIN is peeling
which means
my TAN is VANISHING !! NOOOOOOOOOOOO

EEEE
i can see the little white patches on my leg as if I have a fungal infection ._.
but eeee OMG! HELP !!!
i want my tan back !!
return it back to meeee!!

getting crushed

ok whee
i failed gp ... zzz

oh wells, my confidence kinda got shaken. now i am like dreading receiving my mathematics, my gp, my bio and stuff

suddenly i feel so burdened, the weight of numerous expectations on me
expectations from my friends, my family, my teachers (even though they don't explicitly state theirs) and my own self.

really
help
i am getting crushed

Chem Promo Back

today was the first paper back
the first time i got back my paper in an auditorium

obviously chemistry has one of the largest cohort in the school :P

had decent grades, but I didn't do as well as I thought I would. Disappointed with my results and careless results. Gah!

To others, you might whine and complain and say that I should already be happy with what I have, but what if the "level" of success for me is higher? Don't I have the "right" to also emo and feel bad at the same time?


it is that shit feeling when you know you can do better but you just can't seem to do so
its like I am working inside the PPC curve all the time (econs version)
its like the limits of my results is that coveted "80 or 90" (maths version)

didnt blog for such long time
gah

(hey i blogged here right?)

life is really full of unexpected twists and turns

*enjoys my new tan*

Wakeboarding

ouch
ow
ooomph!

whee i love my new tan
other than my 2 thighs which are sunburnt, i got decent tan on my hands! (and only my hands :( )

haha
wakeboarding rox! sorry if i make you all jealous, but heh!

too bad couldn't show any abs :P
but then I was able to wakeboard ONE-HANDED haha pro or not? :P

so glad, to see another person lifted out from the debilitating chasm of grief and depression

even though its not by me :)

Go Kevin GO!

even after the carnage of promotional examination is left behind to mere traces of my memory, I have to still approach old stuff like Project Work, NRP + other holiday activities. GO Kevin GO !

suddenly the pressure is overwhelming

its not even As.... but why am I feeling as if the examination of my lifetime is here?

LAST HURDLE
AHEAD!!

Friends, let's gather for 1 LAST FINAL PUSH

you know one thing about studying?
it just a serious waste of time

ask me to do it alone, nothing will even enter my head
at least knowing that my friends are out there, it allows some info to enter my head nonetheless

whilst mugging bio

Next time, if you see a cute girl,
call her " Copper Tellerium "

:)


ok, why am i studying chemistry when i have bio coming up?

Josh, here you go

Since Josh tagged me, why won't I do it? :D

Pick your birth month
→ Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you ( lol, wth I am noob, I can't strikeout, so I shall make them shrink in size instead)
→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you ( I realised that bolding in my blog does not have such significant impact, so I am increasing font size as well)
→ Copy to your blog
→ Tag 10 people from your friends list

I. Felix Liew
II. Qiaowei
III. Vanice
IV. Denise
V. Weipin
VI. Ming xuan
VII. Chin Ying
VIII. Celia (but i don't know if she reads my blog)
IX. Anyone else who reads this blog
X. Anyone else who reads this blog :P

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality (Optimism is my forte :P) . Loves attention (Yep, I really do love them). Diplomatic (I always believe in mutual agreements). Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty (Sometimes I think too fast, careless mistakes. Look at my maths for example). Good memory (if so my bio will be full-marks). Moving. Motivates oneself and others (But then, sometimes I do not really know how to do so). Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see (WTH SEXY?).

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic. Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

shit
why can't I just see the solutions? like see how to work it out?
it is like .. there's this stupid fence blocking my way whenever I am doing maths ! gah this sux

Freakish Mosquitoes

Q: what's the buzz around here lately?
Answer:
Examinations are here !
Answer 2:
WRONG! It is MOSQUITOES!

oh shit
mathematics is getting and tougher it seems
i need more practice
practice practice

otherwise i'll be a destitute

ok .. am i exaggerating?

60% done
40% more to go !!!!!

yesss

examinations are really the case of learn-too-much,apply-too-little
in the end I can literally feel the stress (and the knowledge unwittingly...) flowing out of my head after each examination.

oh man, if this is that hard.. A levels?

cmi

lol
i think i kena overdose in caffeine (ok, rather I think I had a caffeine overdose)
didnt really take caffeine for 9 months since Secondary school, and here I am trying a shot at 4 times the strength of a coffee cup

my eyes were popping out

Red Bull gives you wings

I shall try Red Bull, for the first time in my whole life I devoted one single dollar to buying a can of Red Bull (aka 80mg of caffeine)

I shall witness its power :D

I agree with this.. do you?

Just realised how ill-prepared I am
some of you might think "lol this is bullshit", but seriously i look at some questions and i am stumped at how to complete it

haha yesterday was mugging with celia, pearlyn, chu yi.. and later a weary eyed weisin and jiajun came
had fun yesterday... i kind of like that atmosphere, having fun, yet we weren't distracted too much by chatting or playing... in the end i cleared some doubts about Chemical Equilibrium + Chemical Bonding.
i wish my future mugging sessions could be as (productive) fun as that

grah...

then the uncle said something which I thought might sound cheesy or lame, but holds really great meaning. ok, i edited some of his sentences, because i can't remember the entire thing =X
"You study all your years for what? Just to do well in your examinations. If you all don't want to go through your examinations, then study for what? Study to get retained in your own level (JC1 for me)? Just face this examination and do your best."

quite true... even if one does not have dreams to accomplished or aim big, at least strive to ace or pass the examinations so everything you studied for 300+ days back is not down the drain.

So many events.. so little time

oh gosh

and if i dont take them, someone else will ..
grah !

such a hot day...

if only i could wear a singlet to school (and bring a jacket to classrooms)

gosh !

Why am I aiming for something so coveted?

Yet not doing much about it?

I am sure everyone is thinking of this

http://picayune.uclick.com/comics/ftcl/2008/ftcl080915.gif

Application of Economics! (failed one)

According to economic theory, if you decide to have babies, get many.

Prams, maternity dresses, baby beds, baby-related equipment (not food) all have high costs - because they are specialised goods. They have high demand, and low supply, and hence people are willing to pay for more. In addition, it is price inelastic as it is a necessity (ok, consumers deem it is)

In addition, these baby-stuff are only usable for a few years, after which your hundreds of dollars (probably thousands) spent are gone and chucked away to some storeroom. Hence, you should have more babies, and this will allow you to reap EOS as now "unit costs are reduced", baby prams, maternity dresses can all be reused again! :D

voila!

thanks weisin for giving the idea ! :P

FREAK MY MSN JUST CANNOT LOG IN!!!

aaaahhh (then I On computer for what)

aiya screw it

shit la kevin seng

complete all your revision packages and notes by the end of this week

or else no computer on monday, and I mean it.
fish~ (no vulgar :P)

stop gaming la idiot
freaking!
you waste minimum of 2 hours each day to playing games!!!

grah

Peter Cetera - The Glory of Love

oh my gosh, was youtube surfing ... and came across this song
haha immediately recognized it as one of my old time favourites.. :D

love the chorus ... mmm would love to sing it out and mean it



Tonight its very clear
As were both lying here
Theres so many things I want to say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I dont wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youre dreaming of
Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Youll keep me standing tall
Youll help me through it all
Im always strong when youre beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youve been dreaming of
Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youre dreaming of
Were gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love

wasting too much time
wasting too much of other's time

mmm
oh man
why am i like still in relaxing mood when promos is like.. 2 weeks away?
i just can't study... seriously

holy shit.. my bill came to $47

and my monthly limit is $30

die
how to show my father ?

I need a pick-me-up / energy booster / revitalizing enchantment / morale boosting or whatever you call it ... NOW

grah! why do I ALWAYS want to sleep?

Gossip

Gossip really sux, and can be irritating too...

Singaporeans must be too free they can do this kind of things...

aahh last night
had fun with my class

waiting for charles to send me de photo (its charles' camera right)

oh well




"you are just a member, no one will remember what you did. spent 12 hours outside home when you could concentrate on your NTU project or your studies. you are an idiot i tell you. everytime got this huang cheng thing here and there, then you spend your time out. All you do is play play play, studies also like shit."
shut up and go and sleep, I would just walk in myself if you gave me this kind of reaction.

can you all see? gah i forgot how to do the thumbnail thing >.< oh well

god damned construction

just the paving of 1 small little road (not even the whole proper road), and the freaking machine is spewing out unburnt hydrocarbon, oxides of nitrogen, carbon monoxide... all but carbon dioxide.
apparently the diesel fuel they are using stinks !
because the smoke drifted and enveloped my whole house leh.. shit la

not even the toilet is spared from this gaseous monster.

Function + Papaya

f(papaya(x)) = stain

or rather

paper(papaya(x)) = stain


apparently I was eating papaya whilst doing mathematics when some papaya juice dripped onto my paper.. and that immediately came up in my mind :P

mmm i think my mind too maths liao :p

i think my laptop is dying of old age

2 years.. die so fast? wth?

super slow la... wth freaking boot up time is like 10 minutes?!??!

Google Chrome

www.google.com/chrome

Ok it looks great, and its really sleek.

But there are its inherent problems.
.gifs are laggier
chrome can be said to be laggier than firefox

i went to inspect the task manager, apparently each tab has its own memory usage, just 3 tabs and I ate up 80k of mem usage? my firefox previously had 6 tabs and just ate 70k of mem usage..

mm?

other than that, I think its quite cool!

edit:
ok I think reverting back to my Firefox is still better alternative.
Mmmm maybe cuz its still under beta!

LOL

Such is the wonder of image editing

and gifs - they give such low file size

I AM SICK OF ANTS

Ant kill counter as of post count: 15

I foresee an increasing trend in kill count as time progresses


SO MANY CRAWLING EVERYWHERE!!

2nd day

and not a single holiday package done

and now last minute work (again)

omg

Ok, I need an incentive to keep me away from gaming >.<

i think i slack too much during holidays. gah

New Blog Pic!

Haha, another of my gothic themes (in black)

ok not so gothic after all, and I think black is cool!

:D

was walking 2 days back, then decide to take this picture, I think it looked nice :D

for the meaning, find out or think about it

Teacher's Day!

teacher's day today

haha
I watched the funniest made-by-teachers skit in my entire education life till now.
seriously

spastic, and quite interesting too!
(of course teachers will nonetheless try to imbue some "moral of the story" or "金科玉律" in their skit)

and there's this teacher who half stripped, and threw sweets, and even sprayed water at us , really funny

and of course, went back to High School with my 4I classmates. Just a stone's throw away :P
the teachers there still remember us!! And to quote Mrs Giam, "I still miss you guys".
:D
haha really made my day

somehow I got to appreciate my High School teachers better, mmmm wonder why.. ?


and after that... :D

PW
is killing everyone from their sanity
robbing everyone from their own lives

go away

laptop is back!

apparently motherboard failure

so i got a new motherboard ( woots $500 free )

fuck la

why must you say
"What are you doing ah Kevin, don't chat"

everytime you walk past

I really mean everytime.

and its not in the "friendly" tone, but accusatory tone.

Holidays are gone.
Filled with remedials

and my mum will be at home in the afternoon everyday.

sian

I learnt new stuff today!

wheee

for those who know me well enough:

do you think my optimistic self can be sometimes too "much"

like everything i try to look at the bright side, and everyone is never "bad" or "lousy"

lol

hitler is famous
ok he already is

but then this makes him good for spoof material?


it was shown during econs lecture, really funny. ok only Singaporeans will understand.

Hitler and ERP


apparently, that's not all. it seems this is only part of the various spoofs that have been created on Youtube! Here's more!

Someone stole Hitler's Car


Hitler and Vista
(This is really good, because it is not some mindless subtitles, but rather certain words can be "heard" in the video as well!)

RAWR 2 years old LAPTOP SPOIL

SPOIL SPOIL SPOIL WHAT THE ______ (thanks celia for the idea)

AND THE FREAKING HOME COM IS LAG!

wa lau, then I can't be seen for the next few days



anyways, do I have a problem with my speech?

i need to freaking clear my table !

mountains of papers threaten to collapse anytime soon
i am playing uno stacko with the books + files

drips and draps of paper 2 months back can be spotted within the junkyard

by the day, my working space shrinks

oh my gosh !

just realised something,

JC opened me up to a whole new dazzling range of emotions
I think my own ideal perfect way of thinking, is just unable to cope with these
the more I try, the less favourable the outcome is

how ?

saw jiajun's nick
37 days to promos

one word:
wtf

ok its 3
but who cares

wtf


and it doesn't help when everyone is getting stressed, and worried, because it is stressing to be knowing this fact ....

7 Deadly Sins

Got this from Josh, it seems I am not such a sinful person after all :D

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

i am sorry
for not being on

rawr
I should have known better than think my parents are stupid
(oh well maybe they aren't, they are just unreasonable and think too much)


growl
in fact one night of pure mugging is quite ok, although it is really boring having to be alone when I can be with others in fact

bus

it's been a while since i've taken a long bus ride.
of course i slept.
it's nice.

Right here waiting for you

omg
such an old song... and I finally found it (cuz i got the singer wrong rawr)

and another one:

I seriously think
we ought to study


mmmm
i think i shouldnt use the word "ought"

Ears :)

One of Singapore's Core Value:

We must be a gracious society.


At least don't do that in the Olympics, k thanks!

ok I am spiteful, but anyways... good job to those who did their best! :P
Singapore still has a long way to go...


==================================


gosh, i tried to be superman today.
and ended up feeling a bit sick
zzzz

even though the NDP's songs are degrading...
but i have to say this

the fireworks are great, and comparable with China. serious

wth
my hands seem to be sweating excessively today

Basketball

Omg, an hour or so of basketball in the morning is great way to start the day. woo!

shall practice more .. mm i still got a long way to go

Boing~

Beijing Olympic Opening Ceremony

The Chinese Olympic Opening Ceremony was a bang, and was very interesting to watch too

Maybe its due to my super zai analytical mind, I kept thinking of the various motives behind each segment of the ceremony

Here's my conclusion:
1. China wants to tell the world not to mess with them, that they got immense human capital which can coordinate in whatever massive scale events they are in - look at the superb synchronization they showed in the various acts.

2. China wants to tell the world they got the technology, that they have super high definition projectors that can simultaneously screen the various images on the "bird nest" ceiling, and that they have a screen on the floor with super sharp quality

3. China wants to show the world the chinese culture: male dominance - do you realise most of the acts consists of ONLY males, and they only included females when they showed males playing the "dominant" role? They also showed that their people can fly and reach for the skies, especially when they got "faeries" floating around, and the gymnast (4got the name) floating around the "Bird Nest" for the final leg of the torch relay.

4. China wants to tell the world, they got them surrounded. During the countries segment, you can see the countries' teams all gathering into "pockets" that have Chinese as human wall. You look from above (via TV) it might seems as if China has the whole world surrounded

5. China wants to tell the world they are freaking rich. Look at the dazzling fireworks they showcased, and the various technologies they put in.

6. China wants to tell the world, they are extremely diplomatic. "Unheard of" countries even appeared, if I am not wrong all the African nations were invited.

Overall, I would like to commend China for their wonderful performance they put up, albeit the various messages they might be sending.
Spain, watch out, and get your brains cracking, because the bar has just been raised to the limit.

Disclaimer: I am not trying to spite China or anything, but those are my analysis of their performance.

Staying back in school has its perks

it enables you to talk cock with your friends at the loudest of ur voice without having the need to raise your voice
(hmm do i make sense?)

Lmao, rough A level?

don't ask me why

but i found my A level Project Work confirmation slip in my rough paper file - a file i use to keep rough paper for rough work (duh)

:O

i think my PMC is increasing and PMB decreasing

As time progresses,
time left to spend decreases ...

this sux

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iG9CE55wbtY

interesting video you might want to watch
especially if you are concerned about education

when i thought the dust has settled
the wind just started to blow again

wooooo~


-----------------------------------------

gah, today didnt go to school
for an official reason: the doctor wanted $22 from me

so ya
alone at home
lucky I spent like 4,5 hours with my bed
( literally a bulldozer, I am a taurus )
or else I will be like wasting my time away
no motivation to do work
gah, being alone on a school day can sometimes be boring!!

shit i think i am sick again

finished state of fear (again)
in 2 weeks

bah
quite a lousy rate, but oh well, considering the fact i usually sleep on my bus trips.. :)

can you believe it?
i am doing work now .. :O

i need music now
i need you now

I hope this means good luck

my PW S/N and group number
888 HI192 SENG HWEE MIN KEVIN (censored upon den's request.. but true though i shld censor this) 3035 / 1899

:)

how hard is to go against the issue of "obligatory" ?

in other words,

how hard is it to say "no"?
even I am baffled

生病

ya, i am sick

rawr
tml going sch till 11.30
then i go home sleep bah

cant watch movie with my class leh >.<


wheeee, so happy for all your concern

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fuck la
fuck you
fuck you both

the more i think about it
the less I can really think through about it, and the more i think you are fuckers

seriously
can you all just let me do what I want

and yes, ABCD D < i lied on the last grade
not good for you?
ya i know that
i told you the truth
yet I am scolded like shit, like fuck

you know what?
fuck this
i want to show back some fucking attitude, but i can't

you think i act like little kid?
treat me like little kid?
i show you how little kids can fuck you

i think all this talk about generation gap is just 1000% truth

am i that really shit like what you want me to be ?
i know you love me and stuff
but please do not make me give up my NRP and my own life just because my blocks flunked
you think so easy you go do la

edit:
i love songs
cuz they make me feel better naturally..
especially selected songs

treating me like kids, because I am not ready.. ?

I protest, am I really still thinking like a kid now? Or are just our principles and "benchmarks" different - one example: sleeping habits.

SOT really enlightened me alot
but then am I acting in defiance, or merely for my own rights that I actually truly deserve.


edit:

I think you all need to do your own soul searching too, sorry for being so "rude", but I really think you should.

why have i become the thing i have so ever vehemently protested against in my teenage life?

(its quite interesting too)

When You Believe

When You Believe
Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston

Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand
Now we are not afraid
Although we know theres much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could

Oah yes
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

Mc:
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My hearts so full I cant explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought Id say

There can be miracles
When you believe
(wh: when you believe)
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miraclea
You can achieve
(wh: you can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

Both:
They dont always happen when you ask
And its easy to give in to your fear
Ohhhhh
But when youre blinded by your pain
Cant see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near

There can be miracles
(wh: miracles)
When you believe
(wh: when you believe)
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miracles
You can achieve
(wh: you can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
(wh: somehow somehow somehow)
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
Just believe
You will when you
Believe

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i wish to dedicate this songs to some my friends that I know


knowing there's an inherent problem, but unable to help
sometimes they might even be masking these unhappiness inside their seemingly joyful self...

maybe for myself as well, a dose of encouragement...
i do not find anything much to search within myself, I think recently I have been through alot of thinking, and yet am happy to have someone be with me all the way, allowing the liquid in my conical flask to all evaporate away (read my previous post about conical flask)

it was dormant for the time being,
but for some reason, the thoughts suddenly just returned back
(at least now at a smaller scale)
i should shake them away, with my dominating pragmatic sense



woooo
unsatisfactory results for blocks
i am sure everyone got them too,
depends on their own standards

stop comparing with others,
only compare with urself.

hey, nothing in life is sweet, isnt it ? :)

blerh..
buey ta han (can't take it)

why is all the work coming at the last minute?
why am i just still equally sian and lazy?

zzzz
blocks is just 10 weeks away.

This won't do.
All the sniffing down my back,
you think I don't know what I am doing ah?

Do you know the reason why I am still able to "survive" till this day? Because I got people to talk to, people to crap with, people to make me happy and "youthful"!

Whatever you are telling me, is just saying this:
"Do not mix with your friends. You can have friends, but just leave it as friends. Don't bother when it comes to "help" or alike. In other words, be a true-blue anti-socialist."

What's wrong with chatting online? It is not a curse, it is not a crime. Even though if my work efficiency drops, at the end of the day I am still glad that I chat with someone. You know if you just remove my modes of communications, I will just totally feel empty, devoid of something?

Screw la, I am not anti-socialists (not the socialist political system mind you) like both of you. You think just because there's A levels coming I should just make books my best and only friend?

****

黄城 灯光 - 会庆

Was clearing my phone of crap things, and came across this:


memories just flood back to me...
the times we spent together..

i think it is because of 灯光 that made me decide to go for 黄城...

i love you people ! :)

Don't know why...
just have a sudden craving for sweet stuff

chocolates, sweet.. and so forth

today was waiting for the bus home at clementi, then i bought $3 worth of sweets and biscuits, all in a matter of 10 minutes
its like eat, then sian, then eat, then sian, then eat

i think i bao today's budget liao lol

then back in sch, just bought sweet drinks - Ice Lemon Tea + Peel Fresh Apple Juice

oh gosh, wondering what's with my sweet addiction...

now i just want more sweet stuff, but i cant find any! :(

sad thing is how I can only look, but I cant touch it.... :(

Sitting in front of my computer

Alot of things have gone past,

huiqing is over - phew
blocks are over - phew

ok
are those 2 count alot ?

but then, there are still projects still remaining undone, assignments still remaining unfinished, questions still remaining unresolved...

and it seems that the above 2 events somehow raised even more questions, stirred up more feelings ... innocuous they are? I am not sure.

as i am swirling them in my mind like you do with chemicals in a conical flask, i shall take out each drop day by day and solve them slowly..
or should i just drop the conical flask and let everything spill out?
(or just sleep cuz I am speaking gibberish)

rawr this is boring

i rather have school!

serious..

maybe school shld end at 10am on "holiday" days...


even my post can tell how bored i am, see how long it is.

blerh
just had the runs >.<

i think too much milk ingestion..

White Flag by Dido

I am not sure why.
This song keeps getting stuck in my head, and I just love the tune and Dido's voice!

though it makes no sense that I have to mean it now, because it is really not nice when you have to...


"White Flag"

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Fear

I remembered a quote once... that fear comes about from lack of knowledge

many people fear because they do not know much or are unsure of a certain thing. They have no ample knowledge about what is going on, and they fear for the unexpected.

You fear examinations because you are unsure of what is going to come up, and questions like "Is this formula coming up? Is this tested?"
Do you realise that when you know a certain topic is coming up, you immediately feel better?

You fear when questions about how the certain thing is going to run, going to happen, going to take place start to come out, and when you realise you cannot answer them... you start to "hallucinate" and imagine things, and this makes you even more paranoid.

This applies not only in school.
In your life, you fear when you have to make the next decision.
When you are in love, you fear that your loved one is taken away - because there is no concrete evidence or a strong answer that says "no"
When you are going for a job interview, you fear that the interviewer will come up with some super random question that is not part of your "FAQ"
When you watch a horror movie, what makes you scared and frightened is that you do not know what is coming next. You know that something is going to happen, but what? A ghost? Some bloodied hands? Ghost movies specialise in surprises - it is what makes everyone afraid.

So ya. I read in the book "State of Fear" by Michael Critchon. I tell you its a very insightful book, even though its fiction, because the idea behind it is really powerful.

Well.. not sure if it applies to you ... but it certainly applies to me. It still does, right at the very moment I am typing this. Even right at the moment i click that "Publish Post" button.


So be afraid... be very afraid...
It hurts now, but it can also be exciting.
And enjoy the adrenaline rush when the thing you are fearing about sets past...
or maybe the tears...

Before you all start niao-ing me ....
here's a basic convo with my parents

"What? Only _ _? Do you know how lousy is that?"
"ya"
"Mathematics used to be your strongest subject, and you always seemed to be careless since Primary One, ok maybe not during PSLE"
"But PSLE I had the chance to check and double check and triple check. But in this mathematics test it is impossible... as by the time I finished I only had enough time to breathe and then it is up"
"I understand, but at least you can do better than _ _?"
"Ya, I can..."
"See, told you... your late night revision made you a gong and black out during the examination. No wonder careless. Next time NO more late nights for you!"

so ...
high expectations?
how ?

amazing ability of mine

i just realised i have this amazing ability to

switch moods.. like alt-tab between your programs so yea...


like talking to a serious person in one hand and yet chatting in another tone to another person
so mmmmm

even after blocks...
there's still more things to do!!!
omg

PW
GP
NRP
ILP

omg
acronyms spam !!!!

sian
sometimes I think blocks is great.. cuz it gives you a GREAT excuse to not do things :P

what happened

Your result for The LONG Scientific Personality Test...

ISFJ-The Protector

You scored 45% I to E, 53% N to S, 48% F to T, and 47% J to P!

The protector type is called such because you feel your life is best used to protect those you love from the pitfalls of life, to see to their safety and security. You belong to the larger group called guardians. You find great satisfaction in assisting the downtrodden. You are not talkative with strangers, but you can chat tirelessly with those you trust. You have a good solid work ethic. You are thorough and very likely frugal. You do not like to be in a place of authority, and will delegate poorly if forced into a lead position. You share your type with 10% of the population.

As a romantic partner, you are generous and gentle. Occasionally you may be taken for granted because of this fact. You are tireless in providing acts of service for your loved ones. You run the risk of always being exhausted because you won't say no to your partner. You are sensitive to criticism and will withdraw rather than fight back. You wish to be appreciated for your loyalty and whole hearted nuturing. Your values must be respected and you thrive on consideration and kindness.

Your group summary: Guardians (SJ)

Your Type Summary: ISFJ

Take The LONG Scientific Personality Test at HelloQuizzy

interesting..
i was ESFJ last time
what happened?

but then again... looking at the values.. i am hovering here and there

and i think the description fits me greatly..
i am not trying to 吹牛 or anything.. but yea

Affirmation

Affirmation Lyrics
Artist(Band):Savage Garden
Review The Song (43) Print the Lyrics


Complimentary "Affirmation" Ringtone

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye(Repeat 2)
Until you say goodbye
Oh no no no no no ( Repeats itself many times fading)

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just realised, this is one thing which fuels people ... especially for me
it is one thing that keeps me going

affirmation to others
and
affirmation from others

in whatever possible...
be it friendship, love, work...

my friends out there, you may not know it, but simple gestures like talking is enough :)
appreciation
thanks!

complicated

complicated life i have ...

again ?


edit:
ok
i shall do my bio all the way

Just realised,
examinations make you careless like crazy

they should just give us erm... time to do our work, rather than stress us

stress us, how to think ?
gah












on 2nd thoughts,
why is almost every blog I am going to talking about blocks?
mmmm (yea even mine)

Mathematics... please

help me in maths plz!

(serious)

never had such lack of confidence in mathematics in my life

i am surviving
wheeee

ok la
10 lines for 12 mark econs question?

erm only argue Passage A for GP AQ

mmm
what else?
blerh i hope i wont flunk

love with positive income elasticty never lasts

last minute desperation

with less than 24 hours away..

i hope that reciting econs notes helps :D

with someone at least

woooots
no progress made

literally

You Are 51% Burned Out

You're fairly burned out, and it shows. You probably have been feeling a little rundown and irritable lately. If you can, drop a few of your minor responsibilities and focus on what's really important. You have too much on your plate, and it's catching up with you.

Are You Burned Out?

lol .. is that supposed to be good or not ? ... means I havent been studying hard enough? :O

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front. Shy and private, you yearn for security. You take relationships slowly. You need lots of reassurances before you can trust. If you don't get enough sleep, you are: Cranky and a big baby It's hard to sleep next to you because: You are a light sleeper

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Interestingly,

i took this super short quiz as well:
http://www.ipersonic.com/type/SR.html

this is so much to do
in so little time

even if it means a lifetime, it it still limited by how long you live ....

just logged in to maths pbwiki for the first time

after 30 seconds inside,
I signed out, closed the internet browser
and told myself I will not log in until I am forced at gunpoint

to think that everything just happened so fast...
suddenly it is going to proliferate
suddenly it is going to end
suddenly ...

*pinch nose*
*sneeze*

oh my gosh
why?

and i just realised i need to work on my own self-esteem...
mmm, please psycho me that curly hair is nice

die now my parents know
lol !!!

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and my mouth is now super sweet thanks to a mouthful of gummy bears
yum yum... just plain love gummy sweets :D

wheeee today was productive...
i think the last week of holidays has kinda awakened me, I shall start at full speed (or rather increased speed)
*starts to dust my files*

mummy on facebook :O

oh shit
my mum's on facebook
die

A QUIZ!!

yep, you asked me to do it :)

Instructions:
Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Tag people.

01 What's your ambition?
medical science career :D

02 Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
friends... you need to be able to maintain relations with your friends before being able to even smell a bgr

03 Who is the person you trust most?
myself?

04 Do you think you have enough confidence?
confidence in ? .. i don't find that much confidence in my studies now, maybe the best is confidence whilst playing games

05 How many babies do you want?
2 should be great

06 Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
is this meant to be a philosophical question? i saw rainbows after rain before, so yep i believe in it!

07 What is your goal for this year?
finish JC1, at the same time finding things that i truly love

08 Do you believe in eternal love?
its possible... but only when it is a 2-sided affair (and i hope i can be in one :P)

09 Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
never in a relationship before, i wonder who would have done that for me?

10 What feeling do you love most?
happiness, some people say it is love itself... i wonder if it really is a wonderful feeling...

11 What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
if i have the half to even enjoy...
understanding, not tolerance (till the point you can read my mind...)
being open and feel comfortable being with me

12 Which person will you like to find out about most now?
what will other people think if i put the name(s) here

13 What makes you 'high'
mmmm high ? laughter itself ?
having a good friend to really laugh and talk cock with ... yea (jokes included)

14 What does flying mean to you?
nothing. humans cant fly by themselves, the most is free-falling
then again, there was news about this guy who created a REAL working glider

15 What do you crave for the most currently?
days to go pass and stop at desired days

16 How often do you miss your that special someone?
do i have one? :P
if i have one... maybe missing the person whenever i am not with her

17 Describe the person who tagged you in five words.
shorter than me :D
likable
easily high
(5 words already?.. damned)

18 If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
sec1 ... dun ask me why XD

19 What would you do if you had 24 hours left?
spend with my special someone (if there is)
spend with my parents

20 Do you think your blog is frequented?
i am not sure myself. i just know people who visit my blog, and I really thank them for taking time to read my rantings :D
although it'll be nice if more people read though :O

.end.

i have to tag other people too to answer this quiz!
(too bad i cant tag back the tagger :( )
(and too bad the people I want to tag have no blog)
1. felix
2. qiaowei
3. josh
4. wei han
5. wei pin
6. MY CLASS? possible? since my class got a blog anyways? :P

watching aviva open now
somehow i feel damn shuang watching it
haha

i like badminton!

ya.. and i realised the good players in aviva are small boys .. mmm? :D

and the girls are beginning to play like men o.O


blerh... long time since i went to the zoo... mmm

OMG.

Oh My God.

今天，
得到了双喜, 可能说是三喜

yes.
i got an mp3 .. everyone cheer!

i just realised it has developed and changed so much, at the same time allowing me to grow as well, JC is a real life-changer for me ?

and that there are many challenges posed at me, some possibly completed, and some still ongoing.
whatever the case, i have to keep on going strong... and as what I said in my previous post.. trust is still the key factor
hiding will not work, facing the facts straight will

jia you kevin

stupid blocks

From wikipedia:
Taste (or, more formally, gustation) is a form of direct chemoreception and is one of the traditional five senses.

i lost something to someone today ... gosh

and I didnt know taste is such a wonderful sense...
tasting the air, tasting your scrumptious food and what not...

i just realised to my horror that phone calls incoming and outgoing costs a whopping 50cents each minute.

and i am so dead
cuz my bill came to $25 (after deductions)

and its ONLY due to $30 worth of calls (before subsidized)

my sms didnt bao..
284+ 10 = 294 - 6 away from limit of 300

gg
my father is opening the bill as I am typing this... help

edit:
my father hasnt said a word.. and he put the bill back into the envelope..
OH MY GOD I HOPE IT SPELLS FINE WEATHER

if you watch shows or read those stories about poverty.. this line usually comes out as inspiration

"as long as I have hands, I can work and earn a living"

my response to that:

"as long as I have hands and command a low pay, I can work and earn a living"

tonight a bit sian

buses rox

and

86329 47 2 966337385 329 !

at NTU now...
and my first inoculation failed :(

this means my project will be set back for a few days..
oh no ...

there goes my time...
i am sad

Nanyang Research Programme

Anyways.. today at NTU

omg so fun !
seriously!!!
haha
the project wasn't that imba chiem or hard to understand than I thought

generally quite straightforward.. I guess its the analytical part that is the mind boggling part

haha
feels great to actually be working with "adults" and adults in a research lab in a university.. and its for my own life, not some attachment and stuff

I felt much more prepared about this project than my other projects.. haha maybe because I think I read a considerable amount .. but I think I still have alot of room for improvement

anyways...
my lab is super cozy !!!
haha
they even have a radio/CD player to play music
i think tommorrow (oops tomorrow... haha.. dont whack me ah :) ) i shall bring CDs to play la
then got 3 HC seniors!!!
04 batch
01 batch
and another one i 4got which batch he is from
then got a sister of a J2 student

and then.. there's mr goh yan yih
wheee never see him for so long !!! hehe still as witty and cynical as ever..

hahahaha
suddenly the world super small :D

omg
i am looking forward to tomorrow for my NRP
oh man .. more work! more pressure! i think its just cool hehe

i just hope you do not feel neglected because of my time spent in NRP :P

对我来说,爱情...

can only develop once there is trust between each other, and there is no such thing as "hiding" from each other

Reassurance

i need reassurance ... now and future
and you have given me just that

love you :)

CO concert 2008

last night went for CO concert: 疏桐流响

ok
don't ask me what it stands for ... haha because i have no idea what it means..
sorry i don't have to show how weak my chinese is :P

anyways....
yea its a totally small world

i saw ALOT of people.. ya alot of people
not only the spectators, but also the performers
let me list all the performers that I saw and I know:

junhui
hwapheng
louis
gerald
christabella (sorry if i spelt your name wrongly)
hanyang
koymin - senior #1
john - senior #2
shiyu - senior #3

(where were you keat?)

and also....
my estate-mate .. meaning i see her now and then !!!
the J2 girl that I take bus with in the morning!!!

... it is not becuz i like/crush/暗恋 them then i put the "!!!".. but rather.. i was surprised at such a small world this is! hehe

sometimes... looking at your friends performing.. you get both a sense of pride as well as envy.. pride as in ... your dear friend is up there performing to scores of people .. and envy because I just wished I could be there as well .. haha ( i want attention .. yes ! )

the music was nice... ok it should be nice.. hehe i paid lehz XD
it was great.. and I like the *rummages for prog booklet* 《老鼠娶亲》part.. the percussionists were funny! hehe.. even though their instruments could only settle for the bass (what high-pitch sounds can you make with drums?) it was enthralling and captivating.. especially with their various actions

however.. this does not mean the rest wasn't nice.
fluent and sharp... professionals i could only say...
hmmmm

yea.. and also this CO concert allowed me to catch up on my good old friends:
weipin
weihan
adrian
kahloke
junlin

omggg miss them haha :P
i think these are the people whom i could really relate to last time... if you know me well.. you know what i mean

haha jiaxi why never go :( .. (anyways i doubt he'll read this)
maybe if some other persons go it'll be a much a better experience.. 4I gang ftw!

i went to this CO concert.. only because to support the 4I friends and my seniors... not that I cant appreciate the music.. but I managed to convince my parents to let me go.. and yep !!!

OH YA.. thx hwapheng for smsing me late in the night... omgg

i dunno why i am a bit high typing this.. even though i am crap dead tired and zzzzzz...

只对你有感觉

(飞)无解的眼神心像海底针
光是猜测我食欲不振
有点烦人又有点迷人
(h)浪漫没天份反应够迟钝
不够谨慎花挑错颜色
但很矛盾喜欢你的笨 wo-oh-ho

(music interlude)

(飞)微笑再美再甜不是你的
都不特别
(h)眼泪再苦再咸有你安慰
又是晴天
(飞)靠的再近再贴少了拥抱
就算太远
(合)全世界只对你有感觉 wo-ho
(飞)玩的再疯再野你瞪一眼
我就收敛
(h)马路再宽再远只要你牵
就很安全
(飞)我会又乖又黏温柔体贴
绝不敷衍
(合)我只对你有感觉

(music interlude)

(飞)体贴却黏人爱哭却温顺
有时天真有时很邪恶
对你耍狠就是舍不得
(h)请吸收养分让脑袋平衡
要你现身动作慢吞吞
怎么承认我非你不可 wo-oh-ho


should i just say i love this song? i love to sing this (even with my tone deaf ability) and hopefully... mean it