I dont want this.
but I have to do it.

My results have totally gone rock-bottom. Second last in class. MSG of 3.89. WHAT THE F**K ?

man i screwed up totally.
maybe I am over confident, over complacent, did not study .. oh well..

shit
whatever the case.. i am going to mugging mode from today onwards.. already have a schedule ahead of me.

all I wish is to have a peaceful surrounding to study, do not want my parents to add salt to the wound.
oh well...

kevin seng shall b away from 19th to 29th August. if you know why. =)

heh. =P

shells are made to protect,
but sometimes it can be a curse.

sadly, this world calls for people to put on a new coat, mask, shells that hides the true self. Sometimes it is essential to succeed, sometimes it is abused.

Bottled up feelings are one of the most dangerous things to have, especially when the bottle does not get emptied once in a while.
Storing up all these thoughts compresses the mind, removes space for other happy moments.

Release all of them if you need, there are always people around you that can offer a lending ear. Do not fear, do not detest, do not hate. It may sound altruistic, but that's the way to being happy.

hey, again.. thanks to Joel, mwhahha look at this:

even if you are a science freak or detest science, this should be some interesting thing:



http://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/electromagnetic_spectrum.png

Fun.
I am rushing my homework and now I am playing host to some additional virus from Earth.
Yay.

I have already lost my nose in a marathon, I hope I dont land myself in music.

in lieu of stressed,
Kevin Seng decided to look for some random jokes...

The Little Girl and the Wrinkles

A little girl is sitting on her grandpa's lap and studying the wrinkles on his old face. She gets up the nerve to rub her fingers over the wrinkles. Then she touches her own face and looks more puzzled.

Finally the little girl asks, "Grandpa, did God make you?"

"He sure did honey, a long time ago," replies her grandpa.

"Well, did God make me?" asks the little girl.

"Yes, He did, and that wasn't too long ago," answers her grandpa.

"Boy," says the little girl, "He's sure doing a lot better job these days, isn't He?"


Gorilla Control

A man calls the Animal Control in his town, because there is a crazed gorilla on his roof, and he can't figure out how to get it down safely. Soon, a van pulls up, and an old man gets out, carrying a small dog, a baseball bat, and a gun. He hands the man the gun.

"Okay, here's what we do. I'm going to go up onto your roof, and threaten the gorilla with this baseball bat until he falls down. When he falls down, this little dog will bite him in the balls until he's incapacitated."

"Great," says the man. "But what's the gun for?"

"In case I fall down instead of the gorilla -- shoot the dog."

I loved you then.
I still loved you now.
But this love now is more of a friendship bond.

But I do hope we can continue this friendship bonds forever.

I must change.

Rope in others to help me change for the better. Yes!

now I can only do positive stuff ..
if I say anything negative .. i'll get hounded by some people for sure ...

so what is opinions then?

on the brighter note, tommorrow is national day celebrations..

really sorry to those who have to do sai gang tommorrow whilst the rest are .. enjoying themselves

to whoever who have read my blog ...
and to all my friends.

I appreciate and thank you for being with me all these years =) ..
and songs to help fill the void
especially to those who have taken time off to read all my thoughts..

not trying to butter or curry ... but just feeling it now ...
complexities
predicaments
confusions

...
what exactly do you want?

is it due to my misexpression again?
what can I do to earn your forgiveness?

such is the restrictive power of language...

just realised I am stuck in 2 predicaments
I want to deny, but I know I cant deny .. and if I do not deny .. I might be mistaken ... oh man .. go either way and I still end up worst ... 进退两难.

if only lives were movies
if only speech were songs
if only actions were dance
if only humans were characters


...

just went for a <10km hike at the Rifle Range route. Its in between Bukit Timah Nature Reserve and Macritche Reservoir.
Something special is.. I am trying out the army boots of my father's =D .

Going OBS in.. 2 weeks?
so must try out the boots..

seriously.. 0 CUSHION! ..
but stable nia.. press against my ankle and stuff xD ..
heheh

can't wait ..

wow... away from the PC for 2 days non-stop. literally... omgawd...
hmmmm
kinda wondering what allowed me to do this?

haha thanks libo for lending me Deathly Hallows..
oh man.. finished it in less than 8 hours.. =D .. i reckon!
JK really has an intriguing sense of humour, and able to play with several words.. omgawd.. just love her bombastic words... how come I cant think of these words whenever I am writing a composition? .. hmm ... that's the fun of narratives.. all those description coming me... just wondering the time I last used the word "lurched" .. lolz..
well.. shant really comment much.. but after reading my friends' blogs, and the blog post about their view on Harry Potter, I agree with them lots.. =)
go and read.. even if you know the ending.. its still a good read...

oh man. why the sudden chillness in the air? why the dreadful silence of sadness hanging? ... negative thoughts fuel the Darker side of everyone, yet positive thoughts bring light to these abysses..
cheer up!
如果一山还有比一山高，那可说一山还有比一山矮？
why think about these things... how about those people who cant even get 3 meals or day, or a nice pair of shoes?

just watched "Children of Heaven". Its the original idea that made Jack Neo direct "跑吧孩子". Well, you can obviously tell certain things... there are the neglected.. and the rich.. hmmmm .... maybe we are a bit too 软?

thanks for those who asked me about the event.. at least I have cleared my head a bit =) .. now working on the 1000 word essay as a means to "repent"...