I am not sure why.
I am not sure how.

Friends seem to come and go, arrive and leave.
Some go quietly, others with a bang.
Some go off gradually, others in an instant.

Some come slowly, others click on the spot.
Some come heartily, others through unkempt silence.

but.. looking around...
how many do I really have in fact?

how many can I confide in?
how many can I share my worries, my happiness?

not sure.
not really sure.

am I losing more than I am gaining?

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then again, this thought seem to be ringing in my head.. usually at around this time..
the time when I am pondering, thinking, recalculating, recounting... about me, myself and I