maybe...
i am not sure why ...
.
certain memories fade away like dust blown by the wind
whereas others can be as heavy and stone like rock.
why are some so easy to forget..
why are some so easy to remember?

i am not sure why to ...
how ever.. what's worst is to keep it all up in one-self...
memories.. embrace. them .. enjoy them .. relieve them ...

pain, suffering, anguish, hatred, jealousy, envy...
happiness, delightedness, enlightenment, surprise, excitement...

all the words.. to describe them ..
but still ... it matters on whether you want to remember, or forget..

what's done is done..
scold, "niao", bully, tease, shout, talked back at, cursed, swear
so what? its done!
rememebr them again .. and laugh at it., look at the bright side.... although its hard.. but time to come.. yu'll learn..

however, there are some times .. which you hope, you admire, you want.. yet you cant get it .. that... is one of the most difficult things to overcome ...

and i have that problem..