Stock take

I just browsed through my past posts, and am inspired to do a stock take on myself so far.

I realised I am indeed a personification of "Jack of all trades, master of none". I can't identify any instances where people seek me because of some expertise that I have that is noticeable or impressive. Maybe I have forgotten about it, but it seems that everywhere I look there's someone who is known for - something.
I can play many sports, but am not good enough at any to even make it to any teams or pose a satisfactory challenge to anyone.
My academics are generally not too bad, but I am not that known to be good at any.
I have friends and can warm up to people very easily, but I lack any "close cliques" - at least this is from my perspective. Sorry I am not insulting any other close groups that I am currently in.
There are so many other points I can find but I just don't wish to put all down.
Even while I am typing, I am wondering to myself, am I ranting this just to gain attention? Just to gain sympathy? And then there's the other voice telling  me: "Don't try to win sympathy, it will gain nothing instead".

I have made many decisions, and am currently in Dance, Badminton and Squash - all hall-based because honestly I won't make it to the school team. There's a difference between "giving up a chance to try" and "wasting time". However, even within these groups, I am not even good enough to be the main team or forefront - at least that's what I think.
What's with this mentality and insecurity? Why am I thinking this way? I know this is unhealthy, but I just can't help to think about it. I know I shouldn't be thinking this way, but it is this inner thought that I have been suppressing all the while.
I am sorry that if you read and you reflect on yourself and think: "But look at me, I am worse than you (Kevin) in A, B...", but I refuse to accept such "rebuttals". Quite ironical though that I think this way.
Maybe I just want recognition. Maybe I just need reaffirmation. Maybe I should stop being such a practical idiot and compare myself with those who are "lousier" than me? Oh wait why should I be comparing with them? Shouldn't we always look forward?

Oh god. So much contemplation. I should sleep, what am I doing at 2.30am and self-deluding and imposing so much stress on myself?

Anyway based on what Sean wrote, I should put pen down my thoughts the moment they come into my head. So yea, here it is.