Hospitals

Screw my hormonal tendencies
Screw those deep thinking, it is only making myself more dull.
Just get a life.


One thing about hospitals is that it is really bad for us young people
No matter how efficient and effective the medical care hospitals provide - they only provide that one spectrum of care; they are unable to provide any support to one's emotional and psychological well-being.
Those brusque questions that they ask that speaks of concern for one's emotional needs (like "How are you?") are usually cursory formalities. Once you tell them you are ok, they will simply go off to another patient.
I don't blame them for that. Hospitals are to provide "medical care", not "emotional care" or "spiritual care" - these are handled by other institutions such as one's families, friends and religion.
Despite knowing all these and understanding their limitations, I just still can't help but feel lost and needy in that aspect.
But I know, everyone else has a life. I also do not want to be a burden to them. I do not want to let my environment affect me, neither do I want my environment to be affected because of me.
I have to do things by myself, on myself, with myself. Friends will have their own lives to lead. My parents have their jobs to do. SMSes will stop coming. Well wishes will subside. But this journey will not simply end - I have to travel it alone; whilst assuring the rest I am fine.

I foresee tribulations to come. Emotional disturbances and the sense of helplessness and handicap will ensue.
But this is a battle, albeit a solo one. Wielding one mighty sword, and an arm of steel, I shall wage this war alone. Stand back my friends.