Missing you

have you ever had that feeling
when you knew 100% that you could have done it
you could have performed that feat
you even double checked
you even made efforts to clinch that coveted trophy

but then you failed, you missed
you spot some bloody shit mistake there
ok others might tell you.. just a mark, just 1 time..
but seriously, you just knew you could get it, but somehow something could still slip away!

what the shit
but you find it just hard to express your ennui, your anger
you just feel muffled,
you miss your freedom of speech
just because you don't want to hurt other people


and imagine being in that predicament numerous times